I didn't intentionally switch from science to art; it just happened, and now I'm going through a hell of staff members who don't give a shit in an attempt to get it changed back. It was associate's in science-pre-bachelor nursing, then it got changed to associate's in arts-pre bachelor nursing for no reason.
I think it's depressing too. I really do. All I want is to get out of where I'm living, preferably out of the entire state, optimally out of the entire country. It's not that the US is some war-torn hellhole. That's not what I'm saying. I can't explain it. I just want to leave. Too much surveillance. Too much control from the government and major businesses on my daily life. I just want to go. Hearing that no one in my family has even left the country in the last few generations is depressing to hear. I want to see the world, not rot and grow fat and old in bumfuck middle of nowhere. My passions are in medicine and science, and honestly I would prefer somewhere more along the lines of lab work and research. But I can't get around with that. As an RN, I could be a travel nurse, and still sort of fulfill my interests in medical science. There are well-defined agencies that can whisk you across the states, or into countries with high nursing demand.
I'm ranting. I'm not the type of person who isn't capable of college. I'm slightly less academically successful than I think I am because my ego surrounding that is inflated as hell, but my grades are still pretty alright. I'm ranting and I don't understand this college bullshit, and I can't follow my goals of getting the hell out of this place without playing their games of debt fuckery, and I'm just mad. It's all just so much.