Thanks for sharing your thoughts on the whole hypnosis/mind control thing, which was my first reaction when I got my thoughts replaced. I must say, I'm not North American, and I don't know if any of this technology is being used in my country. I'll look into it, for sure.
Regarding wether I'm sane or not, well, it "depends".
Am I functional/useful to society? No, I wouldn't say so. I'm not in education, employment, or training. I struggle with a lot of everyday chores (showering, cleaning my living space, talking to a cashier).
I started therapy at 13~ years old and I spent many of my years taking medication, going to different professionals, and being hospitalized.
Am I a nut case, though? Absolutely not, I can think straight most of the time and I don't consider myself to be suicidal or dangerous in any way. I have a history of aggression, suicide attempts, and self-harm, but that's behind me now. When I told them I wanted to stop therapy they didn't let me at first, but after months of fighting they allowed me. If I were a danger to anyone, I would have gotten institutionalized right away.>As for therapy, if they don't view you as a harm, physically or mentally, to yourself or others, and you are relatively sane(by typing this post you seem to be) in most countries they cannot force you to take medication, but I would check up on your specific country.
No, they can't force you to take medication if you're 18+, UNLESS you get institutionalized again or are seen as dangerous, which might happen if I go to a therapist and talk about my struggles. I mentioned my symptoms briefly in the previous posts because I didn't want to write serval paragraphs, but I will list some of my symptoms. Keep in mind I have diagnosed autism, so a lot of these are to be expected:>Blank expression, overly acute senses, excessive clumsiness, involuntary jerking movements, switching between constant pacing and being in bed all day, not being able to experience pleasure, indifference, not having any aspirations, sudden hostility/resentment, severe anxiety, dropping out everything, social isolation/no friends, poor hygiene (lol), inability to cope with minor stress/any difficulty, being intensely religious**, poverty of speech, poor concentration/memory, obsessive thoughts, compulsions, etc. I could go on all day.
The thing is, I'm not a good judge to say what about me is normal or abnormal. I know I have thess symptoms because they have been diagnosed to me by a medical professional, but I can't tell wether my thoughts are delusional or nonsensical.
Let's say that I hear that having absurd beliefs is a symptom, and I 100% wholeheartedly believe that pigs can fly and this is not absurd to me at all. Wouldn't I, in that case, be unable to tell what's considered absurd?
**I'm not super religious or actively partake in any organized religion/cult; but I take signs from above extremely seriously, and I've been visited by otherworldly beings before.
Regardless, I'll try to call my old therapist and see what she's up to.
Sorry for the ridiculous and unnecessary length of this reply and/or any spelling mistakes.