I believe it's best to be a glass half full kind of guy. The problem is, it's so difficult to be conscious in the moment. Only in hindsight can I tell myself the times aren't as bad as they seem. Life is full of an incomprehensible amount of awkward, mundane moments that get forgotten about hours after you experience them: I made eye contact passing someone on the street, I went to a thrift store and didn't buy anything. It's not a matter of colouring every moment, quantifying them to either good or bad, but taking it all in and judging your general situation as a whole and realizing everything's alright.

>>125
I go back and fourth between being positive and negative. It really depends on what has been happening in the last two weeks or so.

Today, I got out of my car and was looking in the general direction of what I think now is a couple. After about twenty to thirty seconds of me staring in their general direction and the guy slaps the girl's butt and gives while giving me a death stare. I think he thought I wanted the girl, but I wanted to be on time for class, and I found it funny he was staring at me for what I think is nothing.

>>135
That guy sounds insecure.

I finally got a job after a good short year of being a neet. Now that I'm working again I'm probably the most neutral i've felt in a while. Obviously, you can't just not work, but I don't exactly know what I'm working for at this point, other than just to live. I don't love it, don't hate it.

I kind of wish I could have a real hardcore schizo meltdown every once-in-a-while. I feel like it would help with reducing stress occasionally and would enhance my writing a lot.
That's not gonna happen though, and that's probably a good thing.
Meh

>>185

You will eventually get tired of your job so save wisely. My goal currently at work is to accumulate the most money because money will set you free.

Today people from a potential job opportunity spoke with my class,
and it sounded too good to be true. The work schedule was less than the standard full-time schedule, and they didn't require experience. This job opportunity sounds good, but two of the three people presenting are not even working in the position I'd be applying for. There would also be traffic going home, but that is a nitpick. There have just been too many I have been let down and the hype I am told upfront is exaggerated.

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In my car, I am getting sunburned, and I don't know what to do when summer arrives (it is still spring). The strong sun might mean I'll play more video games or I'll swim moar this summer.

There's a lazy coworker who's considering quitting. On the one hand, there won't be as many useless coworkers. Besides that, he thinks he's better than me and others. The fact that he makes "jokes" at his coworkers makes me think that. On the other hand, I'll have more work. Please let me know what you think about my situation if you have any ideas.

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A lot of my friends/acquaintances have troubles at the moment and it makes me very sad. But it shows me how lucky I am and that my personal issues are super small and I am deeply grateful for what I have. I would like to help them, but in many cases it's simply not possible.

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>>216
This post is very poignant to me. Life really does seem to swing from highs and lows like a pendulum. You can hardly predict how and when change will occur, but you can count on the fact that every bad situation will eventually resolve, whether it dissipates altogether or you just learn to live with it; things will get better. You're doing the right thing by staying neutral with your friends; exhaustively extending your empathy to them would come across as patronizing.

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I went to the grocery store and there was this guy who looked exactly like young Kojima, and near him there was this old man who was dressed exactly like me down to the colors and the hat. Strange encounters.

>>233
Do you dress like a dork anon?

>>234
I don't know, but I'm a dork so I probably do, yeah

Although I should be angry about this, my hours were cut this week in order to recoup the hours I squandered at work. It feels good to sleep in and be well-rested. After this week my main priority is getting out of this job because it isn't something I could be happy staying around for years.

It looks like I might be getting an interview tomorrow. As much as I would like this to be a positive emotion, it doesn't seem like anything has changed until I get my job. This interview could be seen as positive because I am finally getting to an interview but self-doubt is getting in the way.

>>288
self doubt, how? elaborate more in this, please.

>>125
This is a great mindset to live by.

Despite being a typical shut-in who always aims to help everyone at work, I'm always smiling when in the office because it's a different environment from home and a change of pace from the rest of the day. This, plus the craving to speak to people (without having the communicative skills to reach out to other stills) has actually led to a positive self-image and almost every day people come up to my desk for small chat which makes my day.

People who embrace imperfection and appreciate the "one-percent" things we do are great people.

>>289
I sometimes fear nothing will come of what I do and all the effort I put in is going to waste. Despite external factors, I try to do my best, but I'd be lying if my doubt didn't scare me.

When I was about to go to sleep a few days ago, my cat stole my bed. The cat was too cute to wake up so I ended up on my old recliner and managed to sleep.

>>320
why not have a minibed for the cat to sleep on, or better yet, sleep with your cat?

>>323
I've already done that, and he doesn't use it. The cat in the scenario I described was sleeping and, in my opinion, was too cute to wake up by getting on the bed. I stared at him for ten minutes and decided to sleep in my recliner because he was too cute to wake up.

I don't know why yesterday seemed to run away from me. It was just one of those days you cannot avoid, but it still gives me weird feelings. It feels like I should have used my Saturday better. This is more mundane, and it is unavoidable, so I still think it is neutral.

My voicemail is apparently is full but who exactly is trying to call me? Generally, I know if a call is coming up soon.

Has anyone hallucinated during the nighttime? Thirtyish minutes ago I was in my car and it wasn't moving. I saw people walking by my car and for whatever reason I imagined a random guy opening my passenger door and throwing me out of the car. Never mind that he'd be merely throwing me on my gears the car doors were also locked. My mind wanders from time to time.

>>186
ime it doesnt advance shit. it just ruins your ability to think clearly for a while and makes you feel awful. art can be informed by attempts to deal with that, but the same art would have been easier without it.

I'm usless, so I might as well spend my time being company to confused and broken people. I can't fix them, but at least me being there might mean something.

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I've been missing out on my gaming sessions for the past week or two. I am not sure what stopped me from wanting to play, but life happens. For my Dragon Quest 11 playthrough, I think I was probably finding the orb search daunting. Luckily today I am getting over my gamer's block. Has anyone else had a gamer's block?

>>567
I've had it before, Sometimes it took me decades to go and finish a game i got stuck on. Other times, Sometimes a nice break from vidya and maybe after a book is read is all it takes me to break the block.

>>568
The main reason I neglected gaming was my job search. It was stressing me out, so the games were not enjoyable. Video games have been one of my ways of coping with the brutal search. Now that I've recently returned to my normal gaming I am probably enjoying it more now than if I continued.

I don't know if this is a bad sign to come or not but the nails the connect the door to the wall came off. I noticed it and it scared me. I hope there is a way of fixing it.

The three interviews I completed today went well, and I was pleased with my level of effort. It remains to be seen if I got any of the position but I am proud about my efforts.

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>>576
I went on a total of seven interviews this week, and overall I am proud of myself for persevering. At first, I was overwhelmed because this was the first time I had this amount of interviews. I hope I get a position, but I need to keep searching until I am accepted.

>>578
Today was more or successful when it came to easing my mind. The more interviews I've had the more insecure I was getting because the last few were unsuccessful. That led to me overthinking things when this could potentially be successful. I'm glad I was able to distract myself.

Today, I was very sleepy for no reason. I don't know why I was so tired because I slept normally. I wish I was able to do stuff since it is the end of the work week, but I am sure this is just not my day.

>>695
Are you maybe caffeine addicted and missed out on a cup of coffee that day? It can happen. Or did you maybe wake up in the middle of the night that might also affect it.