Seek Christ and start lifting.

Just because things are really fucked up doesn't mean that you can't make it a tiny bit better. Nobody can fix this mess, but you can do some good to the people you interact with.
Personally I just want to always keep trying to do a good job at what I do, even if it only profits someone else. I think many of the good things in my life come from people just doing their job while caring about it. On the other hand, many people are understandably sick of it and don't care anymore. They're happy if they can find a job where they don't do anything useful and still get paid. But that's not something sustainable. If we want society to work well, we all should try to do a good job at what we do.
Finally, you should realize that our world today is much, much better than it was 200 years ago. We joke about the industrial revolution being bad, but I for one welcome the inventions of stuff like antibiotics. Maybe we will keep improving slowly, and one day we won't suck so terribly.

>>153
That's a very good advice thank you so much
Also want to add something
Even if we need or want to lose to desperation
Try to look for a way out
Make that desperation a source of strenght
So that your own influence can help others to never fell like that
As long as you remember that this depressing felling is temporary and you are much more than that
Everything will work out
Even if not
Have the hope it will...

>>143
keep in mind that there is a fine balance here. working out can become an addiction so it is important to keep in mind that there comes a time when its wise to slow down. also remember that the kingdom of god does not lie in the church but instead is in your heart. the bible is self explanatory and because man is flawed he sought control and changed the words to his own personal gain and used the church as a means of establishing a means to grow power and become god himself.

- Mid30's and want to die.
- Spent whole life in the shittiest part of canada to live in, where everyone wants out (wpg/mb).
- Spergtism, bipolar, adhd, social anxiety, etc. but far from being mentally or physically disabled.
- Abusive father and enabling mother meant I acted out as a kid and got placed in special needs for childhood, isolated from peers and classes in one room for all of elementary school. suicidal at graduation.
- Placed for years in treatment center instead of school, got better, but years behind peers.
- Placed in special needs again in high school, this time sent out to work at local businesses that never paid me instead of doing classes at school, few classes i got amounted to learning to be a cashier.
- Got away from my psycho dad, been placed on all sorts of experimental psychiatric drugs that seriously fucked me up physically and mentally, squandered opportunities couldn't hold down a job because of this and unresolved trauma.
- HikkiNEET 4 life since High School, living off of welfare for 15 years. 60 bucks a month for spending money.
- My life is starting just now and I'm already middle aged by biological standards, my body and mind have been breaking down since 25, not that I was in good shape to begin with, I can't even have an erection anymore.
- No driver's license, no passport, no photo id, no qualifications or memberships, nothing.
- Never had many friends, the few I had have left me behind and ghosted me, never been in a relationship, never had sex, no kisses or handholding either.
- Wish I could just go back and redo my life, became autodidactical expert at the science of time travel and turning a middle aged adult back into an infant, also read up on changeling folklore. I think you get the picture of what my fantasy is from here.
- My little sister tells me she constantly expects me to commit suicide and so she's calling me regularly to make sure I'm ok.
- I'm never ok. I hate this life. I need to escape now.
- I hate this city and everything in it - the climate, the people, the politics, everything.
- If I'm gonna die, I at least want my death to mean something.
- What I want is to have an adventurous life.

>>219
Do you have any hobbies?

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Last week I didn't get to do my hobbies to the extent I wanted. I was occupied with being with my family all week. I had fun with my family, but the balance wasn't there. As much as I don't want to be selfish, I am still trying to decompress from university. University took a toll on me because it was painful how I was surrounded by normalfags, who made me feel alone. The aspect that still affects me is I need to make money, and if I want to make good money, I will have to torture myself by being around the same kinds of normalfags who have made me feel subhuman. Right now, the only path forward I see is relaxing my mind with hobbies, and I feel like I need more time to heal. It feels like I need minimal human contact at this moment even though my family still wants to be around me. IDK if this is worth a thread if I elaborated, but I feel I needed to say this somewhere.

>>219
Man...what can I say...
Maybe remember one thing. If you feel that you need to end it all, why not just keep going? Get a bike, and drive far away. What do you have to lose?
See were that takes you. Enjoy nature. Broaden your horizon.
Here's a neat little fact: Nothing will ever be able to stop you from broadening your horizon. It's free. It's everywhere. Read a book, look at a bird. Visit churches in your neighborhood even if you don't believe in good. How does it feel to sit down in a church? Drive down to a lake and build yourself a fishing rod even though it will most likely not work. Try to talk with random people.
I think you understood what I am getting at.

>>240
>>219
^ This and I don't thank the Canadian anon wants to die but make a change. The only thing he can do is make a change.

Just here to check if >>219 replied.
Hope you're holding up buddy.

>>141
i think there's nothing a single person can do but do what you can to just deal with your personal situation and improve your life, you can try and inform friends and family and form groups irl to study, learn, stay aware and do cool stuff like hobbies and the like. if not, then there is always 22chan which is always there and to me has the same purpose. talking is the most important thing above all instead of clamming up.

>>257
I think he's dead...

>>335
Or if you want to be positive he just isn't on 22chan anymore.

>>338
The reason I say this is that 22chan doesn't spell out what advice works for which anon. Anons can figure out their own issues with the help of our hints. I think not spelling things out helps the anon if they really want to help themselves because giving hacky advice like taking a shower won't work for just everyone because the issue is deeper than probably what the anon describes.

I'm totally fine if this gets deleted since it does relate to the topic of religion, my intention is not to be obtuse, just to vent at my current hopeless predicament.
I was born IN A SMALL VILLAGE into a religious family, but both parents "took a side" meaning that one was one denomination, and one was another. To make matters interesting, they had bad experiences with churches, i visited several as a kid but was taken out when they started speaking in tongues, as one example, and in another literally this
https://youtube.com/watch?v=Z58HnORpb2E [Play] along with other churches attempting to get my father to do "bro hang outs" at the local strip club or to literally join a masonic lodge.
I have several distinct memories about churches, one of which was me trying hard to stay awake without remembering jack shit, another one was me getting kicked out of bible class and forced to stay outside after asking too many questions "how can moses keep 2 animals and regrow hundreds more, since animals eat eachother how could they stay friendly enought throughout the entire trip in the ark without killing eachother" that type of thing, i wasn't a prick, just curious
Got frustrated that everyone else ate the little jesus cookies and drink grapejuice because i was "too young" even though it was allegedly so important and jesus was supposed to enter you or some nonsense, i literally wanted to burst out crying lol. There was this one church where you got a fuck ton of free mintos every time you left lmao and i literally only remember that. Another time i spent the entire time playing with toys i think. Either way that was pretty much it, no more church, instead it was just veggie tales. I was told that praying to god was important and god would listen to you, give you things you prayed for and even protect you (whatever the hell that meant) I wasn't told of evil spirits, demons, hell and so on. I eventually stopped praying for one reason or another, i guess i was praying for stupid shit like "please god make my penis bigger" or like "please god give me an imaginary friend" and the like, but i got bored and stopped.
I used to have these mindgames about what god was, who he looked like, and why he did what he did. I imagined he looked like some type of abstract being, like a lovecraftian horror composed of shapes and colors, but invisible, somewhere in outerspace, i thought he controled people like how i controled my toys, made them move and talk, after i had that exact thought, no joke that was it for me, i stopped really even caring about god to much.
When i turned 16, i was given a bible for the first time, to make things better i was given scholarly bible, several bible versions all intertwined for "scholarly research", strongs concordance, an audiobook version of the bible called "the message" and other stuff. My father was training to be a theologian. Bought "a dictionary of angels" at a yardsale too.
I think my mistake here was i read too many comic books. The thing is, you learn about things like "retcons", "canon", "continuity", and so on. Part of the question i had early on was "why are there so many bible versions" and the answer i got was "The bible is the holy word of god, written by divine men, but people wanted it to fit their own worldview, so they edited the original to fit their reality, instead of staying in gods reality, but don't worry, it's actually just the same thing but with a diffrent flavor, it justs means you have people like catholics who do rituals, of evangelicals, who preach, but they are all godly men nevertheless" My mom asked me once my feelings on the bible, that she wouldn't yell at me, or get mad or whatever and that i could speak freely. I told her that, "if i saw an actual angel, then maybe i would believe more, i don't know what's real bit maybe some day i'd figure out."
Needless to say it all went downhill from there, if it didn't already.
I'll post part two in a moment. I was thinking this belonged in the "don't care" thread, but i think it fits here nicely.

>>1015
Fast forward to the future a bit, and part of the problem at hand is that they want me to convert without me even caring, that they have to "save me"
Being that they got involved in the new online movement that shall not be named and is convinced that my undying soul is at risk, that satan and his legion is running the government, and that harry potter is of the devil and if you listen to the spells they use you'll get possesed by evil spirits, that we have to literally throw everything away and move to the middle of nowhere and stockpile on shit or whatever.
Something will trigger them and they'll go off at me for some reason or another, a year ago they did a classic salt pouring thing everywhere, and sprinkled holy water around the house, and then i was dragged off to get baptised, lol. It's like a type of bipolar reaction, one day things are normal and then the next i'm asked to throw away my copy of bioshock because its a demonic game or some bullshit like that. I know beforehand, before i was born, both of my parents went through trauma and stuff i don't need to get into, bit jesus christ i never expected it to get this bad, and for me to feel like i'm drowning with no escape, atleast sometimes that is. >>1015 The tldr short and skinny is that i figured out at best, the bible is a mythology. I don't have any problems with people who enjoy the religon, just niggers who keep nigging to say the least. Someting that comes to mind is that i figured out lucifer was non existant as a kid, i told my mother, showed her the research, and she told me that "lucifer is real, and you shouldn't joke like that, or maybe you should learn hebrew so you can actually really understand christ and beware of the devils lies" It hurt like hell, it made me pretty much keep to myself, and i used to tell myself shit like "maybe i'm just a dumb kid, that i don't know any better" instead of pushing myself to learn more. The same fire iny belly came back years ago, i don't really know why but it happened, just a hunger for truth if you will.
I guess my problem at hand is that there's no way to "soften the blow" if that makes sense, i always have to keep quiet about what i enjoy, what games i like, what books i read, because anything can trigger them, and then you have the problem of trying to reach mutual understanding. Then there's the classic "fear of the future" Like just dumping off the house, all my stuff to go live in a bunker like a monk without my consent and for no real reason because of sheer fear. I think some of the information i've shared with utmost tenderness and care, to convince them that they need to chill out and maybe consider that whatevers going on is unatural and maybe that they should chill out, and maybe the elites arent eating babies is kind of working, but it feels very fruitless to say the least.

>>1016
I think part of the problem is that conspiracies DO exist, people did fucked up shit one way or another, but the internet just AMPLIFIES everything, to the point where it's a wilderness of mirrors. things like magic or the occult are dubious at best but visually scary at worst and instead of researching, which would have most likely brought some type of comfort, they like to look at shitty tiktoks or read bible verses to confirm the truth or whatever. Fear means those survival instincts kick in, and thus the reactionary behaviour, especially if it's because of new information, that fucks with your personal artifically constructed reality, where before was a land of comfort and relaxation, was introduced a world of absolute darkness and terror at every corner. I don't think it's totally hopless for me, but it still sucks.

>>1017
I don't know how others "cope" to say the least, but personally i find it nice to listen to audiobooks. Also watching youtube videos about unrelated subjectmatter, or reading manga to escape reality for a bit, since it's a tad bit morally draining.