i think i'm more of a planner than a doer. i like planning, it feels really good. then when i actually do act in accordance to my beliefs, the act is much more rewarding and satisfying.
i feel a bit sad when people resort to bad thoughts so easily.

welp
i give up
im going to take a break from school stuff. it makes me tired and i just want to sleep and do fun things. there's so many things in life you can do. its weird how when one is given many options, it becomes harder to act on any of them. i just want to be growing in a fun way. i wish responsibilities were not so aching.

i cannot stand other people sometimes. it's weird how your "friends" turn on you the minute you become self aware.
absolutely delusional

>>708
did this happen to you recently? self aware?

>rabbit proliferation
i don't know. there was a shift recently i think, and maybe i started saying things that revealed myself too much that made people uncomfortable. im usually good at blending in

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>>710
in that
i got too excited vomited everywhere

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i have hit a bump in my productivity.
god and i was doing so well too. very few hiccups. now i know there is this huge thing i have to learn and my motivation has been sniped.
i wish i had work friends or something but i simultaneously don't due to enjoying working alone. i also don't really understand what people are trying to tell me sometimes and it ends up being nerve wracking.
i am confused and alone in my confusion and i think the latter is a motivation killer.

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>>703
slow boart
i am not really a good person. i think it does eat me up inside. i like trying to be better. i know i do dum things sometimes

>>703
meh
i am not against anyone really

>>714
Recognizing your own fault is a admirable trait because many people refuse to look on the inside.

>>717
i am not against anyone. and i never will be. i feel bad when people think you are but you're not.

>>721
It feels like people are against you even though you just want to live peacefully.

>>722
ideally people would just leave others alone. people can work effectively without ever having to deal with other individuals or groups

vent but i am angry right now and i dont even know why. everything is overwhelming and i just want to tear into a pillow and rip it into pieces i dont even know why im angry but i do not like feeling this way.

>>725
You don't know why? There isn't a source for your anger?

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I don't think I'm even human.
I feel nothing, for more than two or three people. I don't care about what other people think about me. I don't care about what I think about me. I don't care what happens to me. I don't care about what happens around me. It's all just nothing. I know I have a soul, but I am not connected to humanity. It's like I lack something everybody else has. Some sort of energy. Emotion towards something I can't see. Thoughts about something I'm not.
What am I?

>>726
i dunno. i just woke up feeling angry i guess. i don't feel angry anymore but i do think i feel more sensitive to things.

>>727
you sound depressed

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random vent

i don't really know what i'm running from or why i'm so scared of being subsumed by things i don't understand. i think decentralization is a healthy expression of one's humanity but it can be obsessive to a point. maybe that's not a good thing, or a bad thing, i dunno really. it feels good though.

i sometimes don't really know what i'm doing with my life and it kills me. i don't know why i do any of the things i do and i think meaning in life is a trap, there is no order to anything and order is inherent to socialization, which just drives people insane because most people would feel at peace if they were by themselves and never had to deal with other human beings.

i don't know what i'm doing with my life.

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>>703
moar venting
i guess i feel awkward sometimes when i realize i'm causing negative emotions to happen. it doesn't really feel good when people try to cause negative feelings between you and other people.
I'm really not against other people. i don't even know why i would be.
i like getting along with others and working together. and supporting people, not targeting other groups. doesn't feel gud to work against others, unless it's in a fun, low stakes game or something.

>>730
Life can be so hard because I am not seeing the result of the fruits of my labor. Not that I am not doing things, but it is hard to realize that I am making progress until some random times.

I've been sick for the last few days and it is frustrating because I haven't been able to do things I've wanted to. There was this manga I wanted to read and post about. Hopefully, I can make up for lost time.

>>779
It's never to late to CATch up

>>780
I feel like I let myself down too often. My aim is to do things well but I end up overthinking things if you know what I mean. Deadlines can be beneficial but they can also cause me to overthink things.

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On your walks at night, do you ever find yourself secretly hoping that you get mugged so you can just have them gun you down? Imagine the interaction, they shout "gimme all you got" and the only thing I can fathom I'd say is "I don't have anything to take. Just kill me man." The prospect is almost exciting.
At least then it would be a "senseless tragedy".

>>789
this, but me beating the actual shit out of the mugger

>>789
I am at peace when I am on a nightwalk so I am feeling good about my life in the small ways I can. Sure my life sucks but I can enjoy small things.

I hate how everyone feels like they are the exception to the rule. The outsized sense of self that normies have is something I cannot be at peace with because this behavior is unavoidable. These people will say it is the other guy doing the undesirable behavior but then will turn around and do the same thing the next day. This behavior is something worth complaining about because there is little that one person can change this behavior.