i think i'm more of a planner than a doer. i like planning, it feels really good. then when i actually do act in accordance to my beliefs, the act is much more rewarding and satisfying.
i feel a bit sad when people resort to bad thoughts so easily.

welp
i give up
im going to take a break from school stuff. it makes me tired and i just want to sleep and do fun things. there's so many things in life you can do. its weird how when one is given many options, it becomes harder to act on any of them. i just want to be growing in a fun way. i wish responsibilities were not so aching.

i cannot stand other people sometimes. it's weird how your "friends" turn on you the minute you become self aware.
absolutely delusional

>>708
did this happen to you recently? self aware?

>rabbit proliferation
i don't know. there was a shift recently i think, and maybe i started saying things that revealed myself too much that made people uncomfortable. im usually good at blending in

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>>710
in that
i got too excited vomited everywhere

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i have hit a bump in my productivity.
god and i was doing so well too. very few hiccups. now i know there is this huge thing i have to learn and my motivation has been sniped.
i wish i had work friends or something but i simultaneously don't due to enjoying working alone. i also don't really understand what people are trying to tell me sometimes and it ends up being nerve wracking.
i am confused and alone in my confusion and i think the latter is a motivation killer.

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>>703
slow boart
i am not really a good person. i think it does eat me up inside. i like trying to be better. i know i do dum things sometimes

>>703
meh
i am not against anyone really

>>714
Recognizing your own fault is a admirable trait because many people refuse to look on the inside.

>>717
i am not against anyone. and i never will be. i feel bad when people think you are but you're not.

>>721
It feels like people are against you even though you just want to live peacefully.

>>722
ideally people would just leave others alone. people can work effectively without ever having to deal with other individuals or groups

vent but i am angry right now and i dont even know why. everything is overwhelming and i just want to tear into a pillow and rip it into pieces i dont even know why im angry but i do not like feeling this way.

>>725
You don't know why? There isn't a source for your anger?

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I don't think I'm even human.
I feel nothing, for more than two or three people. I don't care about what other people think about me. I don't care about what I think about me. I don't care what happens to me. I don't care about what happens around me. It's all just nothing. I know I have a soul, but I am not connected to humanity. It's like I lack something everybody else has. Some sort of energy. Emotion towards something I can't see. Thoughts about something I'm not.
What am I?

>>726
i dunno. i just woke up feeling angry i guess. i don't feel angry anymore but i do think i feel more sensitive to things.

>>727
you sound depressed

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random vent

i don't really know what i'm running from or why i'm so scared of being subsumed by things i don't understand. i think decentralization is a healthy expression of one's humanity but it can be obsessive to a point. maybe that's not a good thing, or a bad thing, i dunno really. it feels good though.

i sometimes don't really know what i'm doing with my life and it kills me. i don't know why i do any of the things i do and i think meaning in life is a trap, there is no order to anything and order is inherent to socialization, which just drives people insane because most people would feel at peace if they were by themselves and never had to deal with other human beings.

i don't know what i'm doing with my life.

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>>703
moar venting
i guess i feel awkward sometimes when i realize i'm causing negative emotions to happen. it doesn't really feel good when people try to cause negative feelings between you and other people.
I'm really not against other people. i don't even know why i would be.
i like getting along with others and working together. and supporting people, not targeting other groups. doesn't feel gud to work against others, unless it's in a fun, low stakes game or something.

>>730
Life can be so hard because I am not seeing the result of the fruits of my labor. Not that I am not doing things, but it is hard to realize that I am making progress until some random times.

I've been sick for the last few days and it is frustrating because I haven't been able to do things I've wanted to. There was this manga I wanted to read and post about. Hopefully, I can make up for lost time.

>>779
It's never to late to CATch up

>>780
I feel like I let myself down too often. My aim is to do things well but I end up overthinking things if you know what I mean. Deadlines can be beneficial but they can also cause me to overthink things.

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On your walks at night, do you ever find yourself secretly hoping that you get mugged so you can just have them gun you down? Imagine the interaction, they shout "gimme all you got" and the only thing I can fathom I'd say is "I don't have anything to take. Just kill me man." The prospect is almost exciting.
At least then it would be a "senseless tragedy".

>>789
this, but me beating the actual shit out of the mugger

>>789
I am at peace when I am on a nightwalk so I am feeling good about my life in the small ways I can. Sure my life sucks but I can enjoy small things.

I hate how everyone feels like they are the exception to the rule. The outsized sense of self that normies have is something I cannot be at peace with because this behavior is unavoidable. These people will say it is the other guy doing the undesirable behavior but then will turn around and do the same thing the next day. This behavior is something worth complaining about because there is little that one person can change this behavior.

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Finally saw this movie.
It's ok, though I have no intention of watching the live action Lilo and Stitch directed by the same guy.
They can go ahead and make it anyway, I'm not the boss of them.
I just have almost nothing to look forward to entertainmentwise next year xP

>>834
What movie is this?

>>834
I hate the lack of innovation in mainstream entertainment. I guess the only option forward is to look for hidden gems.

>>835
Marcel the Shell with shoes on
>>836
Basically. I've gotten to the point I'm just gonna try and animate my own works if not collab. Already got almost a half dozen done.
that's how closeminded entertainment is to me now.

>>839
>Marcel the Shell with shoes on
You just made that up. There is no such thing.

>>840
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Marcel_the_Shell_with_Shoes_On_(2021_film)

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And thus this year met my expectations, from start to finish.
May as well wait for 2026..

Welp, it's begun: they hacked Bing simply to irritate us with ads on videos, admitting they dont give a shit about whatever product they were throwing at us tbe whole time.
It was always obvious to me, but it still sucks that this year had to end on such an insufferable note..

>>842
I met my one expectation of getting an office job. It is hard to have lofty goals with how I am and the world is. I just have to accept the state of things.
>>843
I am surprised stuff like this doesn't happen more often lole.

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>>703
A lot of my life since I remember being 2 was me living in fear of anything, even now. Still, not ending it at 10, continuing to where I've found 22chan in 2020, and meeting some of my close friends here was something I will treasure a lot in life. Had to move on due to health, but I'm fine now to return.
Adding on, I've always been someone who plans out stuff in life, but of course, I do often become hyper-focused on other stuff. I've made a 3d model of one of the old mod before I've lost it in a hard drive corruption, but I still have the W.T. Snacks model, so I could remake that.
I'm neither in employment nor in education/training right now since I'm too busy living out my life doing the 3d models/art I want, but at this point, I've done many things I want to do, and even showcase it online, that I'm at peace if I do past on now or anything worse comes.

Just wanted to say thanks to 22chan for letting me stay this long.
Usually I would've gotten kicked out (banned) by now, like I have in past chans. But I'm still here, so thst's fairly sweet. ;_;
Cheers.

>>846
Why did you get banned from the other chans?
>>845
You made or are planning on making a 3D model of W.T. snacks? I wonder if you view this stuff as a useless hobby when I'm pretty sure if you like it like a ton and are really good at it you could probably turn it into a job.

>>845
sorry to pry but do you make money from the 3d modeling or is it just a hobby?
>>846
well as long as you dont break the rules then i dont think you'll ever be banned so it's nothing to worry about.

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>>841
I stand corrected
>>845
I believe in you, and your art, and your spirit. As someone wise once said: "I was dealt a bad hand, but it's not a bad deck."

Dear "OLDER SISTER" (According to google)
If being a "pedo" means having no access to a harmless fetish website that doesnt even fall under the qualifications of that biased label, then it beats being a radically prudish karen =_=.
>>845
Sounds cool. I'm sure it will be ready when it's set to be. I myself am happy with my art as well and am working harder than usual on my animations. It's partial torture, ngl, but the results are borderline professional x_x
>>844
Same here. I tried a simple job in general. Life just always finds a way to make a stable living too convoluted, though(hence why I had to leave mine). I'll see if I can work with my aunts next years, though. X3
>>847
Eh, for reasons ranging from jerkwads gaslighting me too much to the point I said some things that would probably get me incarcerated outside of my country to the websites simply being too moody to be reasoned with. Eitherway times have certainly changed and I'm doing my best to adapt.
>>848
Will do, thank you.

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>>847
Made. I posted it in 4chan since it is apart of 4chan's old culture, but I'm getting Snack-tan into L4D2. Just need to finish getting Moot into L4D2 as well + /V/-tan and I'll try to post everything in /cre8/.
>>848
Full time hobby. It's why I'm a NEET for about a year now. Wanna get every personal ideas I want to do out of the way before I get a job.
>>850 >>851
Many thanks anons.
For the anons that want to know more about the Snacks model, I've created it in 2021 for a group of anon friends in VRC as a joke, but of course, my passion for the design got to me. Idk if I could post links, but it's up on /ic/ and /3/ if you want to get the model yourself there first before I repost it here.

On one hand there is absolutely nothing to look forward to in terms of entertainment next year (at least American, maybe)...
Dont really know what else to say, it doesn't seem to stop, even if that's simply how the world spins, I guess.

>>857
Haven't we been saying this for years? I don't doubt this, but hasn't been in the gutters for years?

>>858
I guess. It just really hurts me that I knew the reaction to a trailer I had no intention of watching would be more entertaining than the trailer itself..

I have finished another animation.
Or, more accurately, rushed an amateur one just for the joy of animating..
it all really went downhill the first time he was elected, didn't it? =_=

>>862
you shouldn't let current events dominate your life or hobbies. also, try and find some positives, like hey atleast taxes won't be as bad (hopfully) or atleast gas prices wont be like 10 dollars per gallon (maybe)
for the most part that type of thing has no real major effect on our lives, unless something happens like a depression but really at best people always either didn't get effected as bad or found ways to weather the storm, as always.
at first i liked trump but personally after going down some rabbit holes it seems like maybe i fucked up by not researching him at all. but hey, that's my problem and it means nothing.
but again the best thing to do is to cut out the news and social media that has a habit of triggering mood swings and propagandizing.
people now are jerking off about stupid bullshit like killer drones and the flu being the black death all over again and its useless and not worth catching up on or giving a fuck about. i can't change political shit going on around the world but what i can do is better my happiness and living standards.
now, i can't deny that the actual hardest thing to deal with is actually family, either overprotective parents or whatever, and the only thing that can be done is negate potential damage before it hits you, and try to coexist without powerleveling or attracting unwanted attention. parents are biblebeaters? maybe not wave a horror game around them and keep your opinions to yourself. best thing to do with family is to be your "usual self" to them in their eyes, and use the internet to express yourself based on what community you browse if you feel put down and squashed, or better yet use it to improve whatever you can.

>>863
I know.
I guess it's not so much Trump or other socipolitical issues that bother me so much as it's the huge evolving corruption that has been running rampant since then.
Making things harder than they would've been at the start of the millenium.
I'd rather not get too into borderline tmi details, but suffice to say it has been emotionally crippling since then.
Still, thank you for the encouragement.

>>863
"Not affecting you" you call them not current, and that they're not events. Your life is plenty dominated by double think when you say living in this cool democracy has no bearing, on your choices to bomb foreign countries in order to maintain a certain standard of organized fiat money value that makes up your bank account and access to "hobbies".

Often times licking on sugar cane from some actually productive country's children, which STILL gets be called "too lazy" because you randomly assigned a low amount of cents on their labor. And equally randomly made it so that confectionaries drawing colorful pictures on the same sugar, is why YOU are paid several dollars for hauling and organizing THEIR product. Organizing the deck chairs on titanic as a fun current event exercise.

This can all be solved fast and easy with some drugs, instead of addicting yourself to sugar.

I'm telling you rational context for your peace of mind. Instead of withering away on dopamine you could be putting yourself into an actual life EVENT, some time soom, the harder the drug the more likely it is. But it's Taliban that stopped 80% of world opium supply ONCE you let them go of "democracy". Now you're left with options of sugar, or, synthetic fentanyl. Bake a cake of those, to reward the heroes of your democracy before they become homeless veterans haunted by the children who their tanks rolled over. Say "thank you" for their service. It's not corruption, it's precisely what you bargain for.

>>867
so much for peaceful venting and discussions

>>868
Just ignore them.
I've dealt with scum like this before (they never practice the "rationality" they preach).

Happy Christmas, 22chan!
Thank you for sheltering me despite things here and there.
Cheers.

>>873
Life can be really tough, but venting here for years has been therapeutic and helpful with coping with the tough situations. I am glad to have a board where people can be sane about our life's problems.

>>874
Sounds good!
I'm glad this board has maintained after all these years. It's certainly helping me so far.

One issue I have going forward in 2025 is that I do not have a big goal. I got my office job, which was my only goal for this year, and I am unsure what would be the next big goal I should be aiming for. It is hard to find measurable goals. One thing I want to do more going forward is play more vidya, but vidya isn't seen as productive as other things. If anyone has productive goals to aim for feel free to shoot the ideas out to me.

>>876
Try maybe setting a goal of getting into more hobbies such as maybe video editing, 3d modeling, cooking, fishing, etc... I guess a hobby that is more productive that could even come handy in the future. Making more contacts with people. Maybe set a goal of escaping your office job through a business idea.

Finally saw a Milli Vanilli documentary on This Paramount ± Extension that came out of nowhere on Amazon Prime.
You get a little more than you expect if you know the story (partly from Fab's part). I just felt like the idea deserved to be adapted into something for any screen for years..

Ah, what a year.
But hey, I'm already halfway into this existence...
That's something positive..

Welp, since this year is almost over I may as well get this off my chest:
If I was rich & skilled af as these artists I myself would make a rap metal/nu metal protest song called "Giving in" sampling Robert Tepper's "No easy way out", mostly for ironic purposes given how I have so much against that irritating song itself (to the point I dont even want to watch Rocky movies because of it). Kind of how
Body count sampled "Comfortably Numb", or Eminem sampled Hadaway in "No Love".
But it was what it was this year...

>>877
I've focused so much on the work aspect of my life these last few years, and I'd like to have some more enjoyment this next year. I'd like to make connections in real life, but I am jaded by how I've been treated like I am nothing by normalfags. My morale is pretty low right now socializing. Hobbies such as Vidya and animu have been neglected these last few years, so most likely I will be gaming more this year.

I love how Peacock is a streaming service that doesn't work outside of the country.
But ever since I moved out I'm still getting emails for shows I'm not interested it.

Ad I can't unsubscribe.
What a way to start the year -_-.

>>882
Is it possible to block the email as spam?

>>883
I have a better idea, CONTACT THEM BACK! TELL THEM HOW YOU REALLY FEEL!

>>882
>>884
At the least you should annoy the company. You should do that for the lols.

>>883
>>884
>>885
Nvm, found the unsubscribe reply feature of their messages (it was not where I usually find those buttons, so it took time to locate).
Problem solved for the time being.
Woo hoo!

At the moment, I am kicking myself for not going on night walks this week. I just got back from my night walk, and I am feeling more at peace than I was earlier this week. This week was a busy week at work, and instead of taking a walk outside, I decided to do my walks inside. Indoor walks didn't relax me, which is something I sorely needed during the busy week.