>>786
Have you thought of what color cat do you want? Some kinds of cats are more talkative than the others.

>>787
Calicos are cute but i met a very kind tabby recently. There are too many choices.

balck cats are alot better then orgnae

>>796
is it because black cats are calmer?

>>797
I like vocal cats who at least feign interest in the owner. The benefit of having a pet is having someone who cares about you and someone you care for in my opinion.

>>657
do you know if specific people in your family that might care enough to ask where you've been and missing your company or is it just impossible to tell?

>>657
Normalfags are so fair-weather people it is painful. When things are good with you, they don't show you that you matter. They only appreciate the theoretical idea of you, not the actual you. Being around normalfags who don't care about you makes me feel even more alone. The gatherings don't matter and are more appearance of family togetherness rather than an actual gathering,

Ah... family gatherings.
These are a reason to celebrate, largely speaking. But as I get older I see that people change. My childhood was guided by the elders of my family, and as a result the family remained quite together. As they passed on, everyone drifted apart even when one or two fought to prevent it. I remember Christmas at Grandma and Grandpa's house. They had 8 kids and the cousin count was huge, albeit with a 25 year range in my generation between oldest and youngest. It didn't matter. Everyone had someone to talk to and play with. As time went on people stopped gathering as readily. One of the cousins is getting married soon and everyone likes him, so I think we will all be together there in celebration no matter how far people drifted apart. I am thankful for that.

Beyond this, though, I find that the reality of the situation is that most people just do not care. They have no heart. No love. They are slaves to vanity and the world around them. This is what causes families to fracture. On my other side of the family I see very little in the way of true close ties. It isn't like it was in the stories of the elders when they first came to this country and the decades that followed. They'll all say it was because of time and work and other excuses, but people only stick together if they really want to. Most don't.

To this end, I also have found that there are certain people, certain families, who I share no blood with but am blessed to be a part of during certain religious and social gatherings. These people maintain the meaning of true family as those you are bound to in spirit and real love.

>>659
>Normalfags are so fair-weather people it is painful.
Yes, I believe this is how most humans navigate society. Certain merits of loyalty and honor are not the standard. I am aggrieved by this, but have learned to accept instead that those who have these merits are instead cherished.

>>964
>no matter how far people drifted apart. I am thankful for that.
It is always a joy to have people show love to you even, though it's been a while. Even if it is fake, it still feels good.
>but have learned to accept instead that those who have these
This is what we need to do to stay sane. These normalfags are not going to change because they are the majority, and we are the chosen few to recognize the shortcomings of society's behavior. The way I cope is to treat myself well. I have to recognize I can treat myself the best, and trying to please normalfags will make me go insane.

>>965
>trying to please normalfags will make me go insane
Bingo. They chase meaningless things that other people tell them matter. I live according to what makes me feel "right" and happy. I don't make sense even to myself sometimes because I feel like I somehow exist outside of the society I am myself a part of. I don't have the same struggles these people do because I am not married to something such as money but rather meaningful experiences with other people and even by myself. I was with my two friends that I live with and we were just "vibing" as is often said by people younger than me. I was taken aback by how wonderful everything felt. We all seemed to be synchronized in this feeling of appreciation that we could share in such a moment with one another. Then it became N64 games all night. We stopped to run to the store and get some soda and snacks and just kept the fun going. It was wild because the whole thing cost us maybe $20 for three people to have one of the most pleasant evenings of all time.

You can't convince people to have fun. You can't convince them to value small things. Even just a single breeze outside winding through the grass. Bringing it back to OP, these sorts of things are what my dad spoke of in abstract terms, describing life on the farm as a child when the extended family would all come and play softball, his mother would put pies on the windowsill, and people just existed. Sure, the same nature of people was there in their hearts maybe, but the world itself was smaller and people could appreciate life. When you look at the "Blue Zones" on earth where people live long lives, social elements such as these are still a factor.

Had a dream about this weird product called "Fight for your life <3" It's an anime fitness program, that basically consist of anime girls working out to jpop , wearing tight fitness clothes. Guess it caused such an uproar in america because the dream shifted over to one of those talk shows, with a black southern baptist type dude and another guy who sounded just like fucking cartman bickering about it. The cartman guy was an obvious troll and the baptist guy was pissed off, one of their arguments was like
"who are they making this for? what type of generation of men will come from watching this?"
and then cartman was like "Clearly the men watching this will be a strong leader type, such as hitler, think of your question more clearly man. Instead of a misogynistic fat slob, the man watching this appreciates strong female role models and even his mother, the next generation will be a strong one"
So yeah it was vivid and strange as fuck dream.

>>958
Your dream feels more logical than most things that happen in real life.

Yesterday I had a dream that ants were getting into the house through holes in the wall. But the real problem was that they were doing something that made the holes worse and worse, to the point where the walls were about to collapse. Then I woke up, checked on the walls and everything was fine, obviously. Then I actually woke up.

So i had to keep these people from breaking in and killing me, kinda like the gameplay of FNAF. I saw a van outside and got some bad vibes so i went outside because i forgot to lock the backyard gates. As i was doing so those people went out of the van and was walking in my direction so i freaked out and franticly locked the gates one by one and made it inside. The problem was i also had the front door unlocked and i barely locked that shit in time. Then in my horror i realised that i forgot to lock the door that lead to the backyard, and as i was doing so the broke in and killed me with a shotgun.

>>962
"these people" in question:
Stereotypical german boy wearing clogs and lederhosen
Woman who suspiciously looks like Janis Joplin, wearing stereotypical hobo garb, carrying a shotgun.

Today's work didn't drag, and that made me hopeful I'd make more daylight time when I got home. Once I got settled from work, it was pitch black outside and cold. That bummed me out because it made me feel like I don't have as much free time as I do on paper. I ended up spending some time outside, but it just wasn't the same as when I spent time outside during the day this weekend. The night, for some reason, made me feel trapped.

Today I had a call with a coworker, and in the middle of the call, I had a bloody nose. I was shidding bricks while that happened because it was embarrassing even if I had the camera off and I was in the middle of something important for my job. Hopefully, that doesn't happen again during a crucial part of the day.

I had a mishap at the office this week. My regular car was in the shop and that meant I was missing my ID. I realized that this might be a problem when getting into the hotel. I tried to go up to another floor hoping that it wouldn't need an ID but this was to no avail. I had to verify my ID to the security guard and in response, the guard threatened to fine me if I forgot my ID again. This is the second time I forgot my ID. This was a case of the security guard being a power-tripping normalfag. It annoyed me because this is part of his job description and he was acting like I was such a burden. This is likely a nothing burger but people annoy me sometimes.

Work has been making me feel more tired than usual. I think it is all the communications I have to do. Normalfags make me sleepy.

Work has hit me on the back of my head. Not anything related to the work itself, but it turns out I owe my employer money. This is disheartening because the way they set up the reimbursement was that they are withholding a certain percentage of my check for the next two months. This situation is making me angry but there is nothing I can do other than grin and bare it. This was their mistake but I am paying the price. I hate when I get stuck in the crossfire.

>>948
It has to something that you can live with. I am glad you made the correct decision for yourself. Being true to yourself is the most important thing.

>>950
Definitely. Thanks again.

Recently my energy levels have been low. I realize this must be because I am dehydrated. It just sucks because my energy is so low doing a lot activities is a struggle due to low energy.

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This weekend flew by and the work week has been exhausting lately. It is just how life is sometimes. I hate feeling like I have little freetime.

>>892
but then you can peel off the glue without ruining the container or the desk? sounds like your teacher is retarded.

>>893
My teacher must of felt the need to clean up the mess and stop me from using up the glue.

I just remembered something that happened recently, was christmas shopping when a bunch of people my age was screwing around in the store. This sounds fine but they where recording tik toks of themselves and actually doing retarded shit. One of the guys ripped off a display baby carrage off of the shelf and threw the fucker hard against a wall and it left a dent. (one of them asked the other why they did it, and the reponse was "there could have been a baby in it" One of the workers called security, and they kept going at it, one of those people falcon punched a tv screen, another ripped up books, it was actual chaos.
Besides the lady who phoned the cops there was a guy who was also a worker who tried to put a stop to things but he was bitch slapped and he just walked away after that.
I think it was good that lady got results instead of some singular faggot security officer who'd like, wave his hands and say no and do nothing. The guy who punched the TV got tased (because he was about to do something and he was super agressive) and was cuffed and the others just got escorted out of the store. It wasn't the last time shit went down because i went to another store and these kids who where probably dropped off by negligent parents and the kids where ripping toys out of the boxes and they got escorted out pretty fast. A few days later i was at a diffrent target and a few edgelords shouted nigger pretty loud and just kinda talked about stupid shit loudly got escorted out by security. I guess hectic shit happends during the holiday but i never expected to see it IRL, instead of on stupid internet videos.

I remember being the one caught for something others were guilty of. So I was on a camping trip where we would repel down the mountain. There was a rule where you could not throw rocks down the mountain. The other kids were chucking rocks on the top of the mountain, and one kid even pee'd off the cliff. I didn't throw a rock at this point. When we got to the bottom of the mountain, I started tossing rocks down the hill because by logic no one was in the wood, unlike how people were throwing rocks in the walking trail. I eventually got caught, and the adult leader never forgave me for it. What I learned was if you are going to do something risky like throwing rocks, don't get caught.

Today at work, I was paranoid I'd be ticketed because I left my parking pass in another car. I worried I'd get ticketed, and coincidentally, I got a tax asking for payment for parking. Before I opened the link, I decided to check if the link was safe. While I was waiting, I was panicking thinking my mistake was going to cost me. When I got home, the site ended up being for something that doesn't operate in my area. I was relieved.

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Summer nightwalks are pretty awesome because of how peaceful it feels in comparison to the winter. One time I got a cool moon picture.

I once snuck out of my parents house in the night, 12 AM and went for a walk.
I had a few episodes of this podcast called anything ghost and it was epic, after i ran out of episodes i had downloaded the walk continued in silence with nothing but the noise of nature and cars. I didn't get hurt and it wasn't spooky at all, dispite being night the moon was bright. Had a few deep emotional thoughts about my life at that moment and when i arrived back it turns out i walked for 3 hours. I didn't get caught and it was one of the best memories in my life overall, sure it might seem boring to some but it was a very meditative experience to me. Too bad i was too much of a bitch to try again. There's something magical about the night. During the day it's not so bad, i wish i could have told my parents "fuck you" when they told me "going for walks isn't safe anymore" because my walking time is actually nice and quiet, sometimes i'd listen to music (depeche mode/pink floyd/soft cell on a loop) or audiobooks, or a podcast like hardcore history but really i like the quiet and nature sounds.
Meeting stray cats and cool animals, finding hidden places, and noticing details i haven't seen about my local area, all while thinking deep thought, it's nice.

>>943
I get to spooked to listen to music on my nightwalks. It is just a nice feeling to observe nature in the dark. The peace you feel is priceless. I wish I wasn't too dead tired to do a long nightwalk.

I'm kind of worried because i was going for a walk and i spotted a small kitten, there's hawks in my area so i was thinking of grabbing him but he ran off into a bush.
Will he be fine? Maybe the mother cat is around to look after him?

>>947
I hope the cat is safe. I feel like as long as the cat can keep the kittens in her sight they should be ok.