>>916
It made me happy watching the local store cat, she seemed so lively, she perked up her ear to every noise and she had to say hi to people, even if they payed her no mind.

>>991
That is adorable

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Nothing like playing a nice game of tf2 after a long day eh 22chan

It is nice to have the weekend after an exhausting week. The weekends allow me to sit back and relax without guilt. Relaxation is a requirement if you like yourself even slightly.

I am losing some weight and feeling less bloated which makes me feel better than what I've been feeling about myself.

Right now this week starts the busiest time of the year. It has taken a toll on me. The stress has made it harder to enjoy my vidya games. I am so hard on myself sometimes. Hopefully this feel will pass soon.

>>1021
i can agree, i haven't been able to play a videogame in weeks. have you tried doing something else equally satisfactory like listening to an audiobook or reading a manga or something in replacment?

>>1022
I tried to listen to podcasts and livestreams but it isn't as mentally engaging as vidya is.

>>1023
This may not help, but if i don't have time to play vidya, i stay up an extra 30 mins or an hour just to play a tiny bit, it would mean sacrificing your sleep, but depending on the game, you can even lessen the time to 20 or less. I had a little fun playing gears tactics every night that way.

>>1024
This week has ended and tbh I am relieved it is over. I ended up trying to pick up games for a little while but I couldn't make progress in the game I was playing.

>>504
I put pretzels in my soup, so I don't think it is weird. Pickles are great, so I don't blame you. What does your food taste like?

>>505
Lately I've been putting pretzels in everything from mashed potatoes to ice creme. I think I am going insane over pretzels. I think I am a pretzels addict because it always complements the food to me.

Today, I was thinking about whether I could eat either cookies or cake without gaining weight. As of today, I was thinking cake would be pleasurable to eat because of the amount of food. The cake is also viewed as a treat, which made it more alluring in my mind. What food would /yu/ eat more if they did not gain weight?

Peanut butter and jelly is a classic comfort food for me. There's something about the sweet, savory, and salty taste that brings back memories of joy and comfort.

Cheese sticks are nice for lunch!

>>943
I get to spooked to listen to music on my nightwalks. It is just a nice feeling to observe nature in the dark. The peace you feel is priceless. I wish I wasn't too dead tired to do a long nightwalk.

I'm kind of worried because i was going for a walk and i spotted a small kitten, there's hawks in my area so i was thinking of grabbing him but he ran off into a bush.
Will he be fine? Maybe the mother cat is around to look after him?

>>947
I hope the cat is safe. I feel like as long as the cat can keep the kittens in her sight they should be ok.

Oh yeah, i went for a walk the other day and found a gameboy SP-101, the frontlit kind. everything was perfect, besides obvious wear, the typical kind that comes from rubbing, holding and using it, some brown crap in the battery compartment, and a kind of wear based damage on the right trigger that could be from the damn thing being thrown out of a car and skidding. The battery even worked on the motherfucker.

I wish i had more places to explore when going out for a walk, but i guess its fine overall, it beats being stuck inside.

>>922
Hopefully it isn't ruining your plans for this moment. I haven't gotten truly sick in a long time but it must feel bad not being able to do the things you want to do. Migraines make me feel powerless when it happens to me.

I feel pretty depressed over not visiting the arcade in ages. It's not too logical but i am overworked so maybe that's contributing to my feeling.

>>983
It seems like you are nostalgic for a simpler time and feel tied down. If you can take a day or two off and visit the arcade.

I'm very tired, it would be nice to have the time to do something, but at the same time its kind of nice even if i get an hour to watch a youtube video or even a couple of minutes to read a book.

I really need to learn to just keep to myself, whenever i try to just talk to my parents it backfires without fail, they have a side, a worldview and i'm better playing into it and pretending then trying to make them see another side to things.

>>263
its funny because i was the one who gave a damn about conspiracy theories but when i talked about them i was basically bullied about it and now their like "oh yeah u where so smart u knew about this"
fuck man.

>>260
There are a lot of topics that I don’t really care about, but I’ve never been put into a situation like you or >>263 have described (or, at least, I don’t remember any). Even if I’m with one of my parents and their friends are there, they are quite civil about their discussions when it comes to politics and other “serious” topics. Even if they ask for my input, they just accept that I don’t really have anything to say and move on.

>>262
>And if you do care, are you sure you actually care or is it just because other people care?
I think the problem is the word “care”. I don’t really “care” about any particular political issue, I just have my views. A lot of people do genuinely care about certain issues though and I think that’s the problem. As you described with the “muh right vs muh left” stuff, most people want to win an argument rather than hear what others have to say. I’ve had some thoughts about the futility of arguing before but I don’t know if that’s off-topic for this thread.

>>263
Holy shit man that's exactly the feel I was talking about when I made the thread. Sometimes you just can't be assed to care, even if something is "terrible" or "immensely important". Emotional manipulation can tongue my anus.
>>265
I guess it would fit the thread, please share
>most people want to win an argument rather than hear what others have to say
Yeah, on subjects like these it's always like this. Yesterday some family members were arguing about religion and then came to vent to me since they remained seething at each other from their previous encounter lol.

Isn't faith a choice? Should a man have the right to feel, to believe in his actual heart? And so what if i don't? What if, for example the biblical worldview is bunk, then the postulation of "you must have faith, of else" is at wose, exausting. I'm told that i'll be led to "a bad mental state" and "do evil" or, get possessed or get sick or a bad disease or infection, but i have no real care for the matter. It boils down to the typical expression here that i want to live a life, do things, grow old and die with out a care for such things but now all of a sudden religion is now so important, where it wasn't before.

>>1019
I'll tell you what being forced to care, to have faith does, it turns you into a total neurotic, it makes you nostalgic for childhood, and a want of total isolation and seperation. It doesn't lead to salvation, but total distruction. No wonder Spinoza was outcast, if i was him i would have just left myself. All it does is make me question my own reality, the actual objective nature of things, which is funny because i'm not too much of a fan of the bible or the jews for that matter now. I think if they actually tried to not pry so hard, and found a better way of things they would have converted me.

>>338
The reason I say this is that 22chan doesn't spell out what advice works for which anon. Anons can figure out their own issues with the help of our hints. I think not spelling things out helps the anon if they really want to help themselves because giving hacky advice like taking a shower won't work for just everyone because the issue is deeper than probably what the anon describes.

I'm totally fine if this gets deleted since it does relate to the topic of religion, my intention is not to be obtuse, just to vent at my current hopeless predicament.
I was born IN A SMALL VILLAGE into a religious family, but both parents "took a side" meaning that one was one denomination, and one was another. To make matters interesting, they had bad experiences with churches, i visited several as a kid but was taken out when they started speaking in tongues, as one example, and in another literally this
https://youtube.com/watch?v=Z58HnORpb2E [Play] along with other churches attempting to get my father to do "bro hang outs" at the local strip club or to literally join a masonic lodge.
I have several distinct memories about churches, one of which was me trying hard to stay awake without remembering jack shit, another one was me getting kicked out of bible class and forced to stay outside after asking too many questions "how can moses keep 2 animals and regrow hundreds more, since animals eat eachother how could they stay friendly enought throughout the entire trip in the ark without killing eachother" that type of thing, i wasn't a prick, just curious
Got frustrated that everyone else ate the little jesus cookies and drink grapejuice because i was "too young" even though it was allegedly so important and jesus was supposed to enter you or some nonsense, i literally wanted to burst out crying lol. There was this one church where you got a fuck ton of free mintos every time you left lmao and i literally only remember that. Another time i spent the entire time playing with toys i think. Either way that was pretty much it, no more church, instead it was just veggie tales. I was told that praying to god was important and god would listen to you, give you things you prayed for and even protect you (whatever the hell that meant) I wasn't told of evil spirits, demons, hell and so on. I eventually stopped praying for one reason or another, i guess i was praying for stupid shit like "please god make my penis bigger" or like "please god give me an imaginary friend" and the like, but i got bored and stopped.
I used to have these mindgames about what god was, who he looked like, and why he did what he did. I imagined he looked like some type of abstract being, like a lovecraftian horror composed of shapes and colors, but invisible, somewhere in outerspace, i thought he controled people like how i controled my toys, made them move and talk, after i had that exact thought, no joke that was it for me, i stopped really even caring about god to much.
When i turned 16, i was given a bible for the first time, to make things better i was given scholarly bible, several bible versions all intertwined for "scholarly research", strongs concordance, an audiobook version of the bible called "the message" and other stuff. My father was training to be a theologian. Bought "a dictionary of angels" at a yardsale too.
I think my mistake here was i read too many comic books. The thing is, you learn about things like "retcons", "canon", "continuity", and so on. Part of the question i had early on was "why are there so many bible versions" and the answer i got was "The bible is the holy word of god, written by divine men, but people wanted it to fit their own worldview, so they edited the original to fit their reality, instead of staying in gods reality, but don't worry, it's actually just the same thing but with a diffrent flavor, it justs means you have people like catholics who do rituals, of evangelicals, who preach, but they are all godly men nevertheless" My mom asked me once my feelings on the bible, that she wouldn't yell at me, or get mad or whatever and that i could speak freely. I told her that, "if i saw an actual angel, then maybe i would believe more, i don't know what's real bit maybe some day i'd figure out."
Needless to say it all went downhill from there, if it didn't already.
I'll post part two in a moment. I was thinking this belonged in the "don't care" thread, but i think it fits here nicely.

>>1015
Fast forward to the future a bit, and part of the problem at hand is that they want me to convert without me even caring, that they have to "save me"
Being that they got involved in the new online movement that shall not be named and is convinced that my undying soul is at risk, that satan and his legion is running the government, and that harry potter is of the devil and if you listen to the spells they use you'll get possesed by evil spirits, that we have to literally throw everything away and move to the middle of nowhere and stockpile on shit or whatever.
Something will trigger them and they'll go off at me for some reason or another, a year ago they did a classic salt pouring thing everywhere, and sprinkled holy water around the house, and then i was dragged off to get baptised, lol. It's like a type of bipolar reaction, one day things are normal and then the next i'm asked to throw away my copy of bioshock because its a demonic game or some bullshit like that. I know beforehand, before i was born, both of my parents went through trauma and stuff i don't need to get into, bit jesus christ i never expected it to get this bad, and for me to feel like i'm drowning with no escape, atleast sometimes that is. >>1015 The tldr short and skinny is that i figured out at best, the bible is a mythology. I don't have any problems with people who enjoy the religon, just niggers who keep nigging to say the least. Someting that comes to mind is that i figured out lucifer was non existant as a kid, i told my mother, showed her the research, and she told me that "lucifer is real, and you shouldn't joke like that, or maybe you should learn hebrew so you can actually really understand christ and beware of the devils lies" It hurt like hell, it made me pretty much keep to myself, and i used to tell myself shit like "maybe i'm just a dumb kid, that i don't know any better" instead of pushing myself to learn more. The same fire iny belly came back years ago, i don't really know why but it happened, just a hunger for truth if you will.
I guess my problem at hand is that there's no way to "soften the blow" if that makes sense, i always have to keep quiet about what i enjoy, what games i like, what books i read, because anything can trigger them, and then you have the problem of trying to reach mutual understanding. Then there's the classic "fear of the future" Like just dumping off the house, all my stuff to go live in a bunker like a monk without my consent and for no real reason because of sheer fear. I think some of the information i've shared with utmost tenderness and care, to convince them that they need to chill out and maybe consider that whatevers going on is unatural and maybe that they should chill out, and maybe the elites arent eating babies is kind of working, but it feels very fruitless to say the least.

>>1016
I think part of the problem is that conspiracies DO exist, people did fucked up shit one way or another, but the internet just AMPLIFIES everything, to the point where it's a wilderness of mirrors. things like magic or the occult are dubious at best but visually scary at worst and instead of researching, which would have most likely brought some type of comfort, they like to look at shitty tiktoks or read bible verses to confirm the truth or whatever. Fear means those survival instincts kick in, and thus the reactionary behaviour, especially if it's because of new information, that fucks with your personal artifically constructed reality, where before was a land of comfort and relaxation, was introduced a world of absolute darkness and terror at every corner. I don't think it's totally hopless for me, but it still sucks.

>>1017
I don't know how others "cope" to say the least, but personally i find it nice to listen to audiobooks. Also watching youtube videos about unrelated subjectmatter, or reading manga to escape reality for a bit, since it's a tad bit morally draining.