>>969
Good luck! Even if you do fall down, you'll eventually learn to balance, it's like learning how to ride a bike.

>>916
It made me happy watching the local store cat, she seemed so lively, she perked up her ear to every noise and she had to say hi to people, even if they payed her no mind.

>>991
That is adorable

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Nothing like playing a nice game of tf2 after a long day eh 22chan

It is nice to have the weekend after an exhausting week. The weekends allow me to sit back and relax without guilt. Relaxation is a requirement if you like yourself even slightly.

I had a mishap at the office this week. My regular car was in the shop and that meant I was missing my ID. I realized that this might be a problem when getting into the hotel. I tried to go up to another floor hoping that it wouldn't need an ID but this was to no avail. I had to verify my ID to the security guard and in response, the guard threatened to fine me if I forgot my ID again. This is the second time I forgot my ID. This was a case of the security guard being a power-tripping normalfag. It annoyed me because this is part of his job description and he was acting like I was such a burden. This is likely a nothing burger but people annoy me sometimes.

Work has been making me feel more tired than usual. I think it is all the communications I have to do. Normalfags make me sleepy.

Work has hit me on the back of my head. Not anything related to the work itself, but it turns out I owe my employer money. This is disheartening because the way they set up the reimbursement was that they are withholding a certain percentage of my check for the next two months. This situation is making me angry but there is nothing I can do other than grin and bare it. This was their mistake but I am paying the price. I hate when I get stuck in the crossfire.

>>961
I am look at the next paycheck and the amount being taken out is a big hit to my spending and saving. To make best of this bad situation I think I shouldn't worry as much about my savings goal. This situation is basically an emergency. I should strive to save as much money as possible without punishing myself. I should try to keep my life as normal as possible in this situation.

I had to work unpaid overtime and it is a real pain because my time is spent for nothing besides keeping my job.

>>757
Recently I've been able to sleep longer and that has improved my functionality throughout the day.

On the days i don't get enough sleep, i long for the days where i could sleep in, and even stay up to do something i enjoy. On the days i do get enough sleep, i sometimes regret either not sleeping more, or that i couldn't work enough that day.

If i end up feeling sleepy, i cannot sit down or i WILL sleep, no matter where. I just learned that today lol, never again.

>>990
Yeah, I found out the hard way. If I am even slightly tired and I lay my head down 70% I will pass out.

I used to believe EMFs from electronics were hindering my sleep, but after
>putting my computer to sleep instead of completely shutting it down
>accidentally sleeping while watching youtube (phone close to head)
I've started to dream again after not dreaming at all for months. Why is this and what could possibly cause this? Am I just a computer program? Am I in the matrix? Am I was phone?

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This weekend flew by and the work week has been exhausting lately. It is just how life is sometimes. I hate feeling like I have little freetime.

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Sometimes, I wonder if indeed I am a terrible person who harms others intentionally or not and can't help people around with anything due to incompetency and selfishness. Or if maybe it's all a mere lie they project at me because they supposedly hate who I am out of envy and want me to fail until giving up completely and thus lowering myself to their mediocre level.
Well, independently, I'm too exhausted...

>>994
Some problems are only solvable with time. So unless you are forcing yourself into situations you are probably a victim of circumstances.

It feels like sometimes there is only so much I can do but I don't accept it fully that things are out of my control. I think I could do more to make a situation better than mediocre but I can't. It sucks.

I once snuck out of my parents house in the night, 12 AM and went for a walk.
I had a few episodes of this podcast called anything ghost and it was epic, after i ran out of episodes i had downloaded the walk continued in silence with nothing but the noise of nature and cars. I didn't get hurt and it wasn't spooky at all, dispite being night the moon was bright. Had a few deep emotional thoughts about my life at that moment and when i arrived back it turns out i walked for 3 hours. I didn't get caught and it was one of the best memories in my life overall, sure it might seem boring to some but it was a very meditative experience to me. Too bad i was too much of a bitch to try again. There's something magical about the night. During the day it's not so bad, i wish i could have told my parents "fuck you" when they told me "going for walks isn't safe anymore" because my walking time is actually nice and quiet, sometimes i'd listen to music (depeche mode/pink floyd/soft cell on a loop) or audiobooks, or a podcast like hardcore history but really i like the quiet and nature sounds.
Meeting stray cats and cool animals, finding hidden places, and noticing details i haven't seen about my local area, all while thinking deep thought, it's nice.

>>943
I get to spooked to listen to music on my nightwalks. It is just a nice feeling to observe nature in the dark. The peace you feel is priceless. I wish I wasn't too dead tired to do a long nightwalk.

I'm kind of worried because i was going for a walk and i spotted a small kitten, there's hawks in my area so i was thinking of grabbing him but he ran off into a bush.
Will he be fine? Maybe the mother cat is around to look after him?

>>947
I hope the cat is safe. I feel like as long as the cat can keep the kittens in her sight they should be ok.

Oh yeah, i went for a walk the other day and found a gameboy SP-101, the frontlit kind. everything was perfect, besides obvious wear, the typical kind that comes from rubbing, holding and using it, some brown crap in the battery compartment, and a kind of wear based damage on the right trigger that could be from the damn thing being thrown out of a car and skidding. The battery even worked on the motherfucker.

I got agitated with how my family has had a messy house. It is annoying because stupid items were placed in bad spots in the house. I tripped over the various items over multiple times today. Tripping multiple time killed my mood today.

Got sick, first time in i think in an entire year, I don't know what type of illness it is, but it does suck. It's kind of sad because it's at the worst time and i think one of my parents infected me, since i'm not in a position where i got myself sick by my own actions. Oh well such is life.

>>922
Hopefully it isn't ruining your plans for this moment. I haven't gotten truly sick in a long time but it must feel bad not being able to do the things you want to do. Migraines make me feel powerless when it happens to me.

I feel pretty depressed over not visiting the arcade in ages. It's not too logical but i am overworked so maybe that's contributing to my feeling.

>>983
It seems like you are nostalgic for a simpler time and feel tied down. If you can take a day or two off and visit the arcade.

>>975
So did you ever figure out why she didn't want to talk to you anymore before the chewits bit?

>>977

No, not really. I guess it's just how I behaved at school. Always was getting into trouble or doing something stupid. Guess her parents just told her to stop talking to me

>>978
god even after all that time of knowing eachother?

>>978

I've had many such cases, or rather attempted cases. I'd try to make friends when I was a lot younger and the parents or teachers would always break it up/ward them off. So I ended up always being alone because I was always viewed as the delinquent.

What upsets me is that nobody believed me as a kid. I'd only ever get into fights or arguments because people would tease or beat me horribly, and my natural reaction is to argue or fight back. Of course I'd get in trouble for doing so though. I'd never get heard out or have the time of day spent on me because of it, people just assumed I liked picking fights.

This continued pretty much all the way into secondary school, tried to make a couple friends but the people from my primary were there so they'd still bully me. My reputation was made within the first couple of months of being there and remained for the remaining 6 years that I was there.

I think having an autism diagnosis helped in some regards. Teachers stopped looking at me as the kid who just wants to cause trouble to the kid "with problems", so they were more lenient to me. Still didn't hear me out or believe me though. The students still bullied and isolated themselves from me so from about the end of the first year until the end of the sixth I became the quiet kid.

A similar thing happened, though not to such an extent. Again, it replays in my head almost daily.

>in my final year of secondary school
>don't know any of my teacher's names
>don't know any of my classmate's names
>forgetting even those who I went to primary with
>spend my time drawing or practicing copperplate or runes, whatever I had my eye on at the time instead of studying for final exams
>wasn't going to go to uni anyway so who cares
>in language class
>girl I've never spoken to before, don't know her name, don't recognise her face at all
>hair dyed blonde, cute chubby, smiley and kind
>we get paired together for some exercise
>have to talk about what we want to do after school in the language we're studying
>she's very bubbly and nice, talking to me from the get go
>I respond with my usual "yeah.." or "mm"

Thing is, I'd never get paired with anybody. It was as if the teachers were excluding me themselves from talking to others, so this to me was practically foreign and I didn't really know what to do.

>Her:"So Anon, what is it you want to do?"
>Me:"Um.. I'm not really sure. Maybe history or anthropology"
>Her:"Anthropology? What kind of qualifications do you need for that?"
>Me:"I'm not sure. I'm guessing history and some kind of science though."
>Her:"That seems really interesting, what makes you want to do that?"
>Me:"Just seems right to me I suppose. What do you want to do?"
>Her:"I want to work in a beautician/salon"
>Me:"Nice."
>Her:"Yeah, I'm doing an apprenticeship at the minute and it's really fun!"
>Me:"Do you get paid well for it? I can only imagine myself working if I get paid well"
>Her:"Yeah, for what it is I suppose I get paid well, but-"

>she gets cut off mid sentence by the teacher telling us to split up, write about what happened, then hand it up to her before class ends

This was probably about 15 or 20 minutes max in an hour long class and it's replaying in my mind constantly. Not sure if this is a sign that I'm pathetic or what, but these moments are rare in my life so it's more or less all I have. Hoping that someone else itt can relate.

>>984
It sounds like you where so fucking close to actually making a connection with another person, and getting cut off like that severed it. At least you tried.