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This weekend flew by and the work week has been exhausting lately. It is just how life is sometimes. I hate feeling like I have little freetime.

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Sometimes, I wonder if indeed I am a terrible person who harms others intentionally or not and can't help people around with anything due to incompetency and selfishness. Or if maybe it's all a mere lie they project at me because they supposedly hate who I am out of envy and want me to fail until giving up completely and thus lowering myself to their mediocre level.
Well, independently, I'm too exhausted...

>>994
Some problems are only solvable with time. So unless you are forcing yourself into situations you are probably a victim of circumstances.

It feels like sometimes there is only so much I can do but I don't accept it fully that things are out of my control. I think I could do more to make a situation better than mediocre but I can't. It sucks.

I once snuck out of my parents house in the night, 12 AM and went for a walk.
I had a few episodes of this podcast called anything ghost and it was epic, after i ran out of episodes i had downloaded the walk continued in silence with nothing but the noise of nature and cars. I didn't get hurt and it wasn't spooky at all, dispite being night the moon was bright. Had a few deep emotional thoughts about my life at that moment and when i arrived back it turns out i walked for 3 hours. I didn't get caught and it was one of the best memories in my life overall, sure it might seem boring to some but it was a very meditative experience to me. Too bad i was too much of a bitch to try again. There's something magical about the night. During the day it's not so bad, i wish i could have told my parents "fuck you" when they told me "going for walks isn't safe anymore" because my walking time is actually nice and quiet, sometimes i'd listen to music (depeche mode/pink floyd/soft cell on a loop) or audiobooks, or a podcast like hardcore history but really i like the quiet and nature sounds.
Meeting stray cats and cool animals, finding hidden places, and noticing details i haven't seen about my local area, all while thinking deep thought, it's nice.

>>943
I get to spooked to listen to music on my nightwalks. It is just a nice feeling to observe nature in the dark. The peace you feel is priceless. I wish I wasn't too dead tired to do a long nightwalk.

I'm kind of worried because i was going for a walk and i spotted a small kitten, there's hawks in my area so i was thinking of grabbing him but he ran off into a bush.
Will he be fine? Maybe the mother cat is around to look after him?

>>947
I hope the cat is safe. I feel like as long as the cat can keep the kittens in her sight they should be ok.

Oh yeah, i went for a walk the other day and found a gameboy SP-101, the frontlit kind. everything was perfect, besides obvious wear, the typical kind that comes from rubbing, holding and using it, some brown crap in the battery compartment, and a kind of wear based damage on the right trigger that could be from the damn thing being thrown out of a car and skidding. The battery even worked on the motherfucker.

>>657
do you know if specific people in your family that might care enough to ask where you've been and missing your company or is it just impossible to tell?

>>657
Normalfags are so fair-weather people it is painful. When things are good with you, they don't show you that you matter. They only appreciate the theoretical idea of you, not the actual you. Being around normalfags who don't care about you makes me feel even more alone. The gatherings don't matter and are more appearance of family togetherness rather than an actual gathering,

Ah... family gatherings.
These are a reason to celebrate, largely speaking. But as I get older I see that people change. My childhood was guided by the elders of my family, and as a result the family remained quite together. As they passed on, everyone drifted apart even when one or two fought to prevent it. I remember Christmas at Grandma and Grandpa's house. They had 8 kids and the cousin count was huge, albeit with a 25 year range in my generation between oldest and youngest. It didn't matter. Everyone had someone to talk to and play with. As time went on people stopped gathering as readily. One of the cousins is getting married soon and everyone likes him, so I think we will all be together there in celebration no matter how far people drifted apart. I am thankful for that.

Beyond this, though, I find that the reality of the situation is that most people just do not care. They have no heart. No love. They are slaves to vanity and the world around them. This is what causes families to fracture. On my other side of the family I see very little in the way of true close ties. It isn't like it was in the stories of the elders when they first came to this country and the decades that followed. They'll all say it was because of time and work and other excuses, but people only stick together if they really want to. Most don't.

To this end, I also have found that there are certain people, certain families, who I share no blood with but am blessed to be a part of during certain religious and social gatherings. These people maintain the meaning of true family as those you are bound to in spirit and real love.

>>659
>Normalfags are so fair-weather people it is painful.
Yes, I believe this is how most humans navigate society. Certain merits of loyalty and honor are not the standard. I am aggrieved by this, but have learned to accept instead that those who have these merits are instead cherished.

>>964
>no matter how far people drifted apart. I am thankful for that.
It is always a joy to have people show love to you even, though it's been a while. Even if it is fake, it still feels good.
>but have learned to accept instead that those who have these
This is what we need to do to stay sane. These normalfags are not going to change because they are the majority, and we are the chosen few to recognize the shortcomings of society's behavior. The way I cope is to treat myself well. I have to recognize I can treat myself the best, and trying to please normalfags will make me go insane.

>>965
>trying to please normalfags will make me go insane
Bingo. They chase meaningless things that other people tell them matter. I live according to what makes me feel "right" and happy. I don't make sense even to myself sometimes because I feel like I somehow exist outside of the society I am myself a part of. I don't have the same struggles these people do because I am not married to something such as money but rather meaningful experiences with other people and even by myself. I was with my two friends that I live with and we were just "vibing" as is often said by people younger than me. I was taken aback by how wonderful everything felt. We all seemed to be synchronized in this feeling of appreciation that we could share in such a moment with one another. Then it became N64 games all night. We stopped to run to the store and get some soda and snacks and just kept the fun going. It was wild because the whole thing cost us maybe $20 for three people to have one of the most pleasant evenings of all time.

You can't convince people to have fun. You can't convince them to value small things. Even just a single breeze outside winding through the grass. Bringing it back to OP, these sorts of things are what my dad spoke of in abstract terms, describing life on the farm as a child when the extended family would all come and play softball, his mother would put pies on the windowsill, and people just existed. Sure, the same nature of people was there in their hearts maybe, but the world itself was smaller and people could appreciate life. When you look at the "Blue Zones" on earth where people live long lives, social elements such as these are still a factor.

>>930
Oh no don't remind me of the unskippable ads they added inside of the video specifically so the addblocker won't block it

>>931
It is one of the most annoying problems on the internet. The blatant grifting and content farming these youtubers do. The youtuber pads out videos a lot of time to begin with and on top it they spend a minute promoting garbage. It is pure pain.

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>>932
>>931
I find it kind of absurd when the "spend a minute promoting garbage" part for example happens while you're watching a serious documentary about human rights violations in China and the host shifts gears to promote NordVPN, a fully automatic wallet, sketchy cryptos or mobile games, right after he shows footage of a truck crushing school children, but honestly before we get further into that I just wanted to tell you about this amazing project I recently found out about, an undervalued asset called the 22chan Token! Understand that this isn't financial advice but I truly believe this token has a lot of potential. With a team made up of fully anonymous CATs, a revolutionary roadmap that promises catnapping where you let your tokens sleep to earn more, fish farming because obviously cats need a steady supply of fish, and even a potential metaverse cat café where you can pet NFT kittens-LISTEN!!! this is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to get in early before the fat cats start accumulating. The best part is that this 22chan token isn't just another meme coin but it's backed by real utility that is set to disrupt the entire Web3 landscape by introducing a new paradigm of decentralized feline content creation. Whether you're a indie gator artist, a water-melon farmer in the digital economy or just a nigga who loves trading cat-themed JPEGs this project is tailor-made for nyuu! Some say it could even rival BTC in the coming years!

>>933
https://youtu.be/OJDmhLlvQNU [Play]

>>933
i will physically cut off both of my legs and sell them on the black market for 22chan token

>>404
more random update vent
i am more productive lately but much more exhausted later in the day. i feel like school is making me dull as a person. i wonder how to get rid of this dull feeling.

>>420
Productive in what way? In the way of your school work or your hobbies? If you are more productive in your school work try making an effort on the weekend for your hobbies.

There are some days that my stress gets so bad I can't enjoy my hobbies. When I try to do my hobbies it only reminds me the stress. The only thing I can do is to set aside time for my feelings to pass. It is a struggle because I want to balance my life with fun and obligations.

Stress is inevitable so long as stuff like radical profiteering runs rampant in ways too convoluted to do anything about..

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>>405
That's a WHALE SHARK, IT'S NOT A REAL WHALE
GET THIS NIGGA

>>896
People especially these days seem to act more opportunistically than loyal. Maybe the guy wanted the resources of the guy in case he died.

>>275
>I didn't try, but at the end of the day, normalfags won't care if you aren't exactly like them
Yeah, that's why I said "best you can do". You can't reveal your power level to a normalfag because the relationship would be ruined so it wouldn't really be an actual friendship. And like >>276 said, online friends don't guarantee anything either because you're dealing with the opposite side of the spectrum of difficulties, you simply have better odds in that due to the easiness of just writing text from anywhere instead of meeting people face to face.
The last thing you will have in this struggle is an easy time, you surely know that already, but finding something good is possible, you just have to keep pulling on the life gacha until you are lucky enough to get it. That's what it all boils down to: Being in the correct place at the correct time with the correct strangers.

>>276
Yes, online/imageboard friendships are very difficult to maintain. I had to learn it the hard way. There are some "normie" I hate that word, as well as power level, f that people who are my best and most loyal friends who like me and treat me well, and vice versa. That is the most important thing.

>>290
the concept of "imageboard friendships" is honestly antithetical to anonymous imageboards in general.

How the years fly by, this year was longer to me then most. It wasn't without strife and next year will bring big changes, it will be interesting.

>>871
I feel like this year has been shorter than the usual year. After I found my office wagecuck job the year pasted like it was nothing. This is probably a side affect of having less free time.

>Jesus fucking christ /yu/ attracts the worst fucking normal nigger crowd all whiny and bitchy about their shitty problems in Life
It is almost like that is the point of the feelings board. We can't talk about our problems IRL without normalfaggots like you gaslighting us so imageboards provide shelter from you normalfags.

>>574
You just might be completely missing the point of that statement. How would you like it if you browsed an imageboard, which let's say you primarily browse for all other topics like anime, video games, and just fun things in general to escape from reality, and the moment you open the website and go to /all/, you see a flood of negative posts from /yu/ talking about how fucking shit their day was? A minority of the threads on the website completely dominate the front page most of the time, and you're not even allowed to hide their posts because hiding posts here is something that the staff don't like as it creates future problems. There are so many places like this on the internet, specifically imageboards, which are primarily dedicated to the discussion of /yu/. You can't even differentiate one from another, where people revel in their depression with each other, which are almost never happy feelings. The reason /yu/ does attract the worst normal-nigger crowd is that the topic at hand allows everyone from around the worldwide web to participate in it, even non-imageboard users like that evangelical street preacher who came out of nowhere and just couldn't stop spreading to everyone the name of God to deal with their problems.
I don’t know whether I’d ever agree with actually removing the /yu/ board because I do understand that there might be some value to it not found in any other place, and for some, these /yu/ conversations are the only reason they come here in the first place so maybe removing them would lower the activity here even more or maybe even cause an opposite effect who knows... However, I will say that a lot of anons here dedicate a great deal of time and effort to creating very interesting fun threads that could foster meaningful discussions. Now imagine being one of them, seeing all this creativity and energy get drowned out by a constant barrage of negativity to the /yu/ threads while their thread flies off of the bump order. Think about it, if even a chunk of that time spent moaning about daily bullshit was shifted to participating in these more constructive threads, we could actually make something worthwhile happen around here.

"Bro did X"
It is an annoying Generation Z phrase that is really low iq. No one wants to hear your bland narration of what is happening.

This thread makes me angry

Some retarded kid asked if i had the riz or some bullshit and then he asked if i was skippity and after he called me a nigger and ran off to his mom lmao like what the fuck are normalnigger children learning? What does it mean?