>>916
It made me happy watching the local store cat, she seemed so lively, she perked up her ear to every noise and she had to say hi to people, even if they payed her no mind.

>>991
That is adorable

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Nothing like playing a nice game of tf2 after a long day eh 22chan

It is nice to have the weekend after an exhausting week. The weekends allow me to sit back and relax without guilt. Relaxation is a requirement if you like yourself even slightly.

I am losing some weight and feeling less bloated which makes me feel better than what I've been feeling about myself.

One feeling I can't shake off is that something or someone is watching me at night. In the dark, it always seems like something is beside me, but in the end, I never see anything. To me, I feel like it isn't harmful because it is better to be safe than sorry. All my glances to the side are brief and reassuring. I guess it is just a weird quirk of mine.

Today I was tired all day for no apparent reason. I had quality sleep the prior night but I felt sluggish today. Is it the previous week catching up to me? I doubt this is anything serious but it does feel weird.

>>939
I'm starting to get concerned because the sluggish state has continued into today. It is important that it doesn't affect the activities for this week. I'll just do my best.

is it a bad thing that I have no regrets one way or the other? I'm worried this means I haven't developed as a person. I could've done things differently and my life would be in different, some would say more desirable circumstances, but I don't blame myself for it in the slightest. I am comfortable with myself.

>>1012
It depends on if it was a moral matter or not. If it is just a path you are taking in life and you are trying you don't need to shame yourself.

>>972
Where they a Scorpions rip-off?

>>981
More like a Cinderella rip off. Scorpions vocally is too high quality for this crappy band to match.

Last night I had a dream about me hanging out with normalfags who had zero regards to my feelings. When I tried to voices my wants and concerns I was brushed off as whining. When I just got up and left the normalfags started to chase me. The last I rememberer I lost the people chasing me.

You know those AMVs? Well in my dream, i was watching an AMV style video but it was nothing but videos of nazi germany, hitler, and his speeches synced to linkin park.
Does it exist? i must know. Is there a significance to this dream? Personally, i don't know.

I was a cat, sleeping on a branch on the TALLEST tree, it was quite relaxing, there was a nice breeze.

Work has been making me feel more tired than usual. I think it is all the communications I have to do. Normalfags make me sleepy.

Work has hit me on the back of my head. Not anything related to the work itself, but it turns out I owe my employer money. This is disheartening because the way they set up the reimbursement was that they are withholding a certain percentage of my check for the next two months. This situation is making me angry but there is nothing I can do other than grin and bare it. This was their mistake but I am paying the price. I hate when I get stuck in the crossfire.

>>961
I am look at the next paycheck and the amount being taken out is a big hit to my spending and saving. To make best of this bad situation I think I shouldn't worry as much about my savings goal. This situation is basically an emergency. I should strive to save as much money as possible without punishing myself. I should try to keep my life as normal as possible in this situation.

I had to work unpaid overtime and it is a real pain because my time is spent for nothing besides keeping my job.

To be honest, this week of wage slaving has been overwhelming. The clients are usually annoying about making payments at the beginning of the month, but it was worse than usual. Some clients are complaining to the higher-ups. It sucks because the higher-ups are threatening the team I am in. I hate clients complaining and making my reputation bad. I've been stressed this week, and I don't know when the dust will settle.

Got sick, first time in i think in an entire year, I don't know what type of illness it is, but it does suck. It's kind of sad because it's at the worst time and i think one of my parents infected me, since i'm not in a position where i got myself sick by my own actions. Oh well such is life.

>>922
Hopefully it isn't ruining your plans for this moment. I haven't gotten truly sick in a long time but it must feel bad not being able to do the things you want to do. Migraines make me feel powerless when it happens to me.

I feel pretty depressed over not visiting the arcade in ages. It's not too logical but i am overworked so maybe that's contributing to my feeling.

>>983
It seems like you are nostalgic for a simpler time and feel tied down. If you can take a day or two off and visit the arcade.

I'm very tired, it would be nice to have the time to do something, but at the same time its kind of nice even if i get an hour to watch a youtube video or even a couple of minutes to read a book.

On the days i don't get enough sleep, i long for the days where i could sleep in, and even stay up to do something i enjoy. On the days i do get enough sleep, i sometimes regret either not sleeping more, or that i couldn't work enough that day.

If i end up feeling sleepy, i cannot sit down or i WILL sleep, no matter where. I just learned that today lol, never again.

>>990
Yeah, I found out the hard way. If I am even slightly tired and I lay my head down 70% I will pass out.

I used to believe EMFs from electronics were hindering my sleep, but after
>putting my computer to sleep instead of completely shutting it down
>accidentally sleeping while watching youtube (phone close to head)
I've started to dream again after not dreaming at all for months. Why is this and what could possibly cause this? Am I just a computer program? Am I in the matrix? Am I was phone?

I started using a feather pillow, it's easier to sleep but man is it uncanny to place my head on, nice feeling but WEIRD.
>>1001 Maybe your body adapted so now it doesn't bother you.

>>977

No, not really. I guess it's just how I behaved at school. Always was getting into trouble or doing something stupid. Guess her parents just told her to stop talking to me

>>978
god even after all that time of knowing eachother?

>>978

I've had many such cases, or rather attempted cases. I'd try to make friends when I was a lot younger and the parents or teachers would always break it up/ward them off. So I ended up always being alone because I was always viewed as the delinquent.

What upsets me is that nobody believed me as a kid. I'd only ever get into fights or arguments because people would tease or beat me horribly, and my natural reaction is to argue or fight back. Of course I'd get in trouble for doing so though. I'd never get heard out or have the time of day spent on me because of it, people just assumed I liked picking fights.

This continued pretty much all the way into secondary school, tried to make a couple friends but the people from my primary were there so they'd still bully me. My reputation was made within the first couple of months of being there and remained for the remaining 6 years that I was there.

I think having an autism diagnosis helped in some regards. Teachers stopped looking at me as the kid who just wants to cause trouble to the kid "with problems", so they were more lenient to me. Still didn't hear me out or believe me though. The students still bullied and isolated themselves from me so from about the end of the first year until the end of the sixth I became the quiet kid.

A similar thing happened, though not to such an extent. Again, it replays in my head almost daily.

>in my final year of secondary school
>don't know any of my teacher's names
>don't know any of my classmate's names
>forgetting even those who I went to primary with
>spend my time drawing or practicing copperplate or runes, whatever I had my eye on at the time instead of studying for final exams
>wasn't going to go to uni anyway so who cares
>in language class
>girl I've never spoken to before, don't know her name, don't recognise her face at all
>hair dyed blonde, cute chubby, smiley and kind
>we get paired together for some exercise
>have to talk about what we want to do after school in the language we're studying
>she's very bubbly and nice, talking to me from the get go
>I respond with my usual "yeah.." or "mm"

Thing is, I'd never get paired with anybody. It was as if the teachers were excluding me themselves from talking to others, so this to me was practically foreign and I didn't really know what to do.

>Her:"So Anon, what is it you want to do?"
>Me:"Um.. I'm not really sure. Maybe history or anthropology"
>Her:"Anthropology? What kind of qualifications do you need for that?"
>Me:"I'm not sure. I'm guessing history and some kind of science though."
>Her:"That seems really interesting, what makes you want to do that?"
>Me:"Just seems right to me I suppose. What do you want to do?"
>Her:"I want to work in a beautician/salon"
>Me:"Nice."
>Her:"Yeah, I'm doing an apprenticeship at the minute and it's really fun!"
>Me:"Do you get paid well for it? I can only imagine myself working if I get paid well"
>Her:"Yeah, for what it is I suppose I get paid well, but-"

>she gets cut off mid sentence by the teacher telling us to split up, write about what happened, then hand it up to her before class ends

This was probably about 15 or 20 minutes max in an hour long class and it's replaying in my mind constantly. Not sure if this is a sign that I'm pathetic or what, but these moments are rare in my life so it's more or less all I have. Hoping that someone else itt can relate.

>>984
It sounds like you where so fucking close to actually making a connection with another person, and getting cut off like that severed it. At least you tried.

I remember pretending to go to tutoring and just going to the university and taking walks around campus. In uni, my parents wanted me to go to tutoring, but I felt like it was pointless. In high I tried going the tutoring route, but it didn't lead anywhere. Tutoring seems to benefit the people who are very close to figuring things out. When I struggled in class, it took time tinkering with the topic by myself to get some sort of understanding.