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It's been wet and warm and windy. Snow will come, but for now I'm enjoying puddles and rain on the rooftop. I have been drinking tea and cocoa. This year's tree is one I planted probably around 2005. Got too big, it's pushing against other trees and kinda blocks an electrical box. It's twice the height of my ceiling, so I cut it in half. The bottom half goes right up to the ceiling and pushes against it. I put the top half right up against it to help fill out. It's a big sloppy mess, but might be my favorite christmas tree ever.
>>826
Fucken nice! I saw it a few nights ago. My city luckily has a really good historic theatre that keeps ticket prices down to keep events accessible to the public. Lots of great music, hope you enjoy
>>854
Ew. Stay healthy, and if you can't stay healthy, stay comfy

>>855
Yeah it was really high quality stuff, even the child dancers really gave it their all. So many cool special effects too like when the nutcracker fought the rat king, sparks flew off of the blade.

>>855
What type of tree did you plant?

During a discussion today my siblings were talking about how they get excited for Christmas and when they heard I don't get excited for chrims I was told I am cynical. I don't know if I am being cynical actually but I don't want to stress about something that should be enjoyed. Keeping chrims to chrims makes things better for me. I don't understand how I am cynical.

>>865
If you focus on the negative you're labeled as cynical, even if just for the sake of conversation, simple as that. Also, you're not explaining yourself particularly well as I have no idea what you mean by "keeping chrims to chrims". You shouldn't stress about christmas; it's about joy and good will. Something's stressing you? block it out; It's the best time of the year, the one time you can bid farewell to your neighbours "merry christmas" and have it mean something. It's so simple to say and wish unto others, but it's special all the same.

I've had a bit of an epiphany. To sum it up in a sentence, It feels much better, and is healthier to set many short term goals instead of focusing wholly on a single long term one. If you feel steadily accomplished, that momentum will carry you and your willpower over a lot of mental hurdles. So much of it is your state of mind; you just have to remember to keep it under control.

i got volunteered to do a job, help run a stand at a farmers market, although i might actually get payed, for it. i was HOPING to study for a specific job but i guess it'll do, at least its not wagecucking and i'm not working for some corperation. i think it'll be nice.

>>831
I hope you get what you deserve anon! The thing about wagecucking is you are not satisfied with the money you earn because you are always exhausted. When you are enjoying your job the time you spent is being used optimally.

>>832
even if i don't get shekels, i can use the experience because i want to sell stuff at the local flea market so it's kind of a win-win situation.

>>833
Tell me how it goes anon!

>>809
stopping it so suddenly makes it alot worse so im working on lowering it to 75mg at first, but it still wont make anything much better

>>808
What are your hobbies anon? Sometimes the only thing I can do is distract myself with hobbies.

>>812
i make music its a good outlet i think but distractions dont really do much anymore

Natural supplements are the way anon.

>>814
what specific supplements?

>>802
mine is kind of retarded, i feel anxiety because i wish a stranger could just play with me at the arcade or like maybe i could just make a new friend to play wish instead of me playing alone, its not so bad, what does feel worse in a sense is that i'm actually pretty bad, like i'm shit with street fighter and a few rhythim games and i feel anxiety about not performing too well.

>>803
I understand that. In general, if you're looking to make friends online I've met a lot of good people through fighting games, but also a lot of bad, and you have to be a good judge of character to find anybody worthwhile. Ultimately, the people that you find that are worth your time are only in a slump in their lives, and aren't going to be sticking around for long.
Really, being bad is a good reason TO reach out to people that you meet through fighting games, because you have the excuse of "learning from them by fighting them more", even if your intention is just to become friends. Everybody I met through fighting games kicked my ass into the dirt when we met. There comes a point where you have to realize that being embarrassed about being bad is actually MORE embarrassing than simply being bad and embracing it while trying to become more skilled. People appreciate honesty and sincerity.
What kind of fighting games do you play? I remember a long time ago there were attempts to make a 22chan Steam group that never got off the ground, mostly centered around TF2

a big part of the problem is feeling that playing games are an obligation, that because you've sunk even a few hours in any given game that you have to continually go back to it.
If you're stuck in an unfulfilling routine and your nagging subconscious is telling you not to play games and do something else, the best thing you can do is listen to it. It's hard to break from the comfort of routine though, and I won't say it's easy for me either, but it is fulfilling to get to other things you may have been putting off. Eventually, with an effective balancing of your priorities, you can return to playing games without guilt.

>>805
when it comes to online games... the problem is having to subscribe to a service to make that nonsense work unlike how it was back in the day where you plug a little cable or connect to wifi and get free multiplayer, i personally can't be bothered to pay for a service nowadays. i kinda miss playing multiplayer like smashbrothers or maybe some halo, i'd play for the sake of getting stronger and learn some tricks from other people. for a game like destiny pvp i learned real quick to have a weapon like a shotgun and a quick trigger finger. back in the day i kind of wanted to reach out to other people even if it meant talking about the game itself but i wasn't exactly allowed since i was a kid. there was a gap of like 4 years where i haven't exactly bothered playing vidya and only now i've been scanning pawn shops and other places for new games i haven't played before since i only kind of played mediocure games, being retarded i even sold games iight have enjoyed like marvel vs capcom for thd xbox
>what fighting games do you play
back in the day it was smash brothers, mortal combat vs dc and marvel vs capcom but i dropped it like a retard because i was bored and thought i could make some money off of them, (had to track down smash brothers because i realised how stupid i was) more recently i bought the injustice games which was actually pretty fucking fun, there was a marvel game but it was arcade only at dave and busters which is a shame.
at my new local arcade i've been playing streetfighter 2, old school marvel vs capcom, and tekken both of which i'm quite awful at, i actually bought the switch version of the streetfighter games and i get the same result.
whenever i play a fighting game its pretty much me button mashing like an idiot instead of like developing strategies or something like a regular human being would. i have been trying to slow down and actually play the game (street fighter 2) but it always ends up to me getting stunlocked by fucking Dhalsim every god damned time.

>>732
That reminds me of life in general. In the past things felt so simple but now it feels so complicated.

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yeah. i feel that way too sometimes. i think complexity is beautiful and terrifying at the same time. maybe people grow to appreciate it as they get older

>>734
I hope I can feel the same way when I get older because I want some clarity on life sometime.

i wanna be at peace when im older

I remember being obsessed with USB drives when I was 11. Flash drives were a required school supply for that year. When I got my USB I found the way it carried files cool. I remember getting so obsessed I'd call the kids without a flash drive broke.

>>646
Sorry didn't realize you felt that way. I'll knock it off.

>>635
Well i managed to pull it off and snag mysepf a copy and afterwards they ran out of stock and took the game off of the online stock thing so i'd say it worked out. It's just i had to dedicate a fuck ton of time F5'ing the website and then going in store.

>>636
culture should not exist only for those who can afford it. it's hilarious because the same people who bitch about muh diversity make the most expensive content. piracy is not a crime.

I love how you aren't allowed to ask questions or even take an alternate look at history anymore or just like, talk about a specific group of people without getting a tactical nuke dropped on your ass. For all i know all of history can be fake so why not do research to confirm shit?
Another thing i dont like is how everyone is supposed to have the same religion or political belief like if it fucking matters even though in america atleast it wasn't supposed to matter.
The comics code of conduct was created out of a moral panic and there was major cencorship done to radio broadcasts back in the day when it was actually unwarranted, when anime first hit america in the 90's so many people got pissed off. I wouldn't be shocked if thats why we get shitty localisation of japanese media is because our poor poor american sensibilities can't fucking handle it.

>>104
https://youtube.com/watch?v=wiehQvYGv6U [Play]
GET MAD
GET SO MAD IT DRIVES YOU MAD
just remembered this sequence from g gundam and it reminded me of this thread, i had no choice

also
i'm never trying to hurt anyone's feelings. i feel like people should always keep that in mind when people try to dissect controversial opinions. i don't like seeing people distressed as that usually indicates something in their past is preventing them from thinking about it clearly. i just want to understand everyone and make sure we're all on the same page.

>>599
sometimes i express my honest feelings on something and it gets on other people's nerves for some reason. i can be a depressive kind of person but i don't really understand why expressing negative emotions, even if they're not directed towards anyone, gets a bad reaction from others.

also, this has been getting on my nerves for a while now, but mental illness or neurodivergence acceptance is not an invitation to be an antisocial or mean asshole.

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How do you guys deal with social isolation?
I know on some instinctual level we have a need for companionship, but at the same time I feel no desire to acquiesce to the demands of society in order to achieve it. I don't care how I present myself in public, or how stilted I am when speaking to people for this reason, because I know I'd rather be alone than waste my time with all the bullshit other people bring. Socialization hinges on putting on a front for others therefore anyone I would meet wouldn't connect with me.
I feel like I'm fighting a battle between my instinctual and rational thoughts and it's beginning to wear down my sanity. I hate them all and I also hate myself. The whole paradoxical nature of it all just pisses me off and I'm wondering if anyone is going through something similar. Probably not because I doubt this will make sense to anyone but me, but that's okay.

>>680
There is no good way of dealing with social isolation because it is not a good situation to be in. It increases your risk for health risk. I think the best thing to do is to get the most clarity on your situation so you know the solution you need.

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>>680
I promise you anon, what you're experiencing is chronic amongst humanity. These concerns of yours have entered the mind of almost every single person on this planet at least once. This is a problem that I myself have faced for almost my entire life. And for that, I have one thing to say to you; you're thinking about it wrong. You are not a victim of "normalfags" or regular people.
You're right, there is this sort of double faced "game" that people play in social situations. A kind of awful dick measuring contest, constantly. It's horrible, and it's not something I choose to entertain myself. Do you find yourself wondering how hard it must be to find somebody that's actually authentic? Somebody honest, who doesn't play those games? Everybody likes authenticity, and yet, our social lives are filled with plastic fakeness at every turn? It doesn't make any sense, except it does.
Nobody likes playing this social game. Nobody except the narcissistic and self obsessed. Everybody wishes they could be "authentic", and that they could find somebody who is "authentic".
So, what's stopping you from being that authentic person? Naturally, you would be afraid of others not liking you, but truly that is only a symptom of the problem, rather than the source. I can speak from experience, and I promise you brother please believe me, people are attracted to honesty. You do not need to play this game to be socially successful. You simply need to be honest, fair, and good hearted. People of high quality will find themselves inextricably attracted to you, pulled towards your presence. BECAUSE you're honest! Your honesty will terrify some, irritate others, and attract many. It's always going to be a mixed bag.
But-- a problem. You cannot truly be honest with others if you hate yourself, and you admit that you do hate yourself. And thusly, the true problem is discovered. All of us here on 22 are socially isolated, and many here hate themselves. I believe that there is a connection, in that people who hate themselves, and force themselves to behave and act differently around others, actually push people away. People are attracted to good qualities, such as honesty, fairness, morality, intelligence, etc. It's very difficult to have those qualities fully and truly if you hate yourself.
I know that you reading this probably won't solve anything, but if I have one piece of advice for you, anon, it's this;
Love Yourself. Learn to like yourself, learn to respect and appreciate yourself. If you love yourself, you will become okay with others not accepting you, and if you're okay with others not accepting you, then you have more social freedom than even the most powerful normalfag. Because you will then be the arbiter of your own social life, not a victim of it. Honesty trumps all.
Godspeed brother.